Peter Parker // Tom Holland // one shots

Thoughts [Pt. 2]

~Your POV~

I woke up at 4 as I usually do. Peter always wakes up before me and then wakes me up. When I wake up I can't go back to sleep in the morning so I just decided to get up. I walked to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and hair.

I splashed some water on my face to try and wake me up. I walked back to my room and grabbed some clothes to wear today. It was just a sweatshirt and some jeans. I got changed in the bathroom and put my hair into a high pony tail. I just looked at myself in the mirror. I looked dead inside and I was really pale.

I sighed and walked out of the bathroom. I walked back to my room and sat in my bed. I never did the homework last night. I'll probably get detention as usual. I don't really care anymore.

I just sat there and watched as peter went back and forth in and out of the room.

"You ready?" He asked.

"I guess." I said.

I jumped off the bed and grabbed my backpack. I slung it over my shoulders and I grabbed my phone and walked out of the room.

Me and peter walked out of the apartment and down the stairs. We always walk to school together. It's the only good thing about my day.

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We soon arrived at school. Me and peter talked about the usual, about what this day is going to be about and his internship.

We have five out of nine classes together. We have study hall and drivers ed together. On the days where we have gym we have it together. So basically on a normal day we have three classes together and today we had gym.

I walked to my locker and set my things inside and grabbed my things for first period. I walked with peter to homeroom and soon to first period. We had science and we were paired up. He would always work on his web things and I would try my best to complete the actual work.

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So yes you would think, it's the end of the day where I can finally go home! But no. I got detention for not doing the homework and the teachers never let me talk about how I don't understand it. They always just interrupt me and say 'When the adult is talking you stop talking' shit like that.

Today was terrible. In gym, I got tripped and punched by flash. Then in math, I got tripped again and kicked in the stomach. Then in history, I was all alone with no one and so people took that to their advantage. They threw papers at me and when I opened them it said things like 'go kill yourself' and 'fuck you you worthless piece of shit' and 'no one likes you. Die already.' I keep every bit of it.

And at art today, I went to go to the bathroom and when I came back someone had put clay on my chair and so I sat on it and had to change.

Oh but it doesn't stop there! At lunch, when peter left to get his lunch, someone poured their lunch on me. I had to change into another sweatshirt. And lastly, in the hallway someone tapped a 'kick me' sing to my back. Like that's really cliche but it works. I got kicked and punched the whole day!

Now it's detention and I hid in the corner and tried to do homework. But as usual, I didn't understand. Peter is always too busy with his internship to ever help me and I have no friends to help me with it. Not even Ned. He hates me and so does Michelle.

When can I catch a break? Never. I can never get a break and so that's why I'm going to a bridge tonight and jumping off! I can't do this anymore. Nobody likes me and I can't ever do anything right! I hate my life.

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Finally detention was over and I ran home crying. I ran up the building and to my room. I locked the door and grabbed the razor. I jumped in my bed and kept cutting myself. It didn't matter how much blood I lost, I was going to lose everything tonight.