Karamel: One More Time

Eleven

It had been a week since Monel had been shot. He still hasn't woken up. I visit him everyday. I sleep with him every night. He is so peaceful. I feel that it's my fault. If I wasn't busy bathing in the glory of my life right now. Of course it didn't last long. 

I walk into the D.E.O. and  see him laying there so peacefully. I go to the medbay. Alex was in there.

"Any updates?"

"Yeah. I called Caitlin, Barry's friend... and she did a thorough search and check up."

"Good or Bad?"

"Both. He will wake up... but it won't be until a while."

"What's a while mean?"

"Kara, you can't stop living. But you have to stop coming here everyday to see him."

"How long?!"

"A year or two."

"A year?"  I felt my eyes tear up. I would have to be without Monel for a year or maybe even longer? "I can't do this. I-" I walked out of the room and flew to the balcony. I flew into the sky trying to find something to calm me down before I go kill that criminal that did this to me.

Oh screw it. I flew to the prison. I asked to speak to him, his name was Harold Garns. He sat down and we both picked up a phone.

"Supergirl? Uh... Listen, I just want to-"

"Shut up. You know that guy you shot? He was the only man I've ever loved. You took him away from me for who knows how long. YOU!" I stood up and felt my eyes heat up. "If you think for one second that you are going to get out of here and live a happy life, you were wrong. I will make your life a living hell! BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT YOU MADE MINE! I would kill you if it weren't a crime." I hung up the phone as the dragged him back into the jail cell.

I walked back to my loft. In my suit. Everybody looked at me. I knew it but I just looked down at the ground. Kicking the rocks as they came. Of course when I was walking home, it started to rain. I didn't start flying or running. I just kept my head down and walked. When I got to the D.E.O., I was soaked and dripping water everywhere. I walked over to Monel. My hair dripped onto his chest. I just hugged him. 

"I'm so sorry. If I knew, I would have stopped the bullet. But you already knew that." I kiss him again. I didn't want to go home but I needed to. I needed to clean, eat dinner, and maybe find another job. That would probably distract me, but until then, I'll just watch Netflix.

I dragged my hand across his abs. I loved the feeling of them. I would always put my hand there on movie night. Or whenever I could. 

"Monel. I'm going to make you a promise. Unless we break things off, I am never going to look at another man. Peter was a mistake, you weren't here, I was lonely. Peter filled my heart but when you came back only you could fill that. But I will never look for anybody else. I promise you. I want to marry you. I want to love you. I want you. All of you. This is my promise to you. My promise that you are end, my beginning. my everything." I gather my tears.

"I listened to this song that reminded me of us, actually there's a few. Like me better, Every little thing she does is magic, but mostly this one..." I take out my phone and play it.

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know  

I start singing along. 

When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing makes us feel alive  

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And time's forever frozen still  

I cry while leaning on him. "I don't know how I'm going to do this. What if they are wrong? What if you never wake up?" I clench his shirt in my hand. His grey shirt. My favorite one of his. It soft making it easy to hug.

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone, wait for me to come home  

"I'm waiting for you to come home."

Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know, know
I swear it will get easier  

"Just wake up Monel! JUST WAKE UP!" 

"Kara!" Alex says pulling me away from him. "Oh my God. Look at you. You're a mess. Go home, don't listen to sad music, eat ice cream and watch your favorite show." She hugged me and pushed me out of the room.

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If you want the lyrics here you go:

Ed Sheeran: Photograph

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing makes us feel aliveWe keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And time's forever frozen stillSo you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone, wait for me to come homeLoving can heal, loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know, know
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of you
Hm, and it's the only thing we take with us when we dieHm, we keep this love in this photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts were never broken
And time's forever frozen stillSo you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet
You won't ever be aloneAnd if you hurt me
That's okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come homeOh, you can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were sixteen
Next to your heartbeat where I should be
Keep it deep within your soulAnd if you hurt me
Well, that's okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you goWhen I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost back on Sixth street
Hearing you whisper through the phone
"Wait for me to come home"

Songwriters: John McDaid / Ed Sheeran / Tom Leonard / Martin Harrington

Photograph lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Spirit Music Group, Concord Music Publishing LLC