Me and my dads (a phanfiction)

6. The Angel.

A/N HI! So I'm sorry if this gets updated more than a week later, it is the crappy wifi. ENJOY.

It is 10 am. My parents actually woke up, and are now quickly eating breakfast. Eef woke up at 8 o'clock, which was late for her. My cousin Emily of 6 years old was, which was typical for her, still sleeping, just like my grandparents and my aunt Diana. Emily would probably sleep all day if she could.

'Verveel je je?' (Are you bored?) I asked Eef, as she yawned. 'Hmm... Beetje.' (Hmm... A bit) 'Anna, je ziet er moe uit, heb je te lang op je laptop gezeten?' (Anna, you look tired, have you been sitting on your laptop for too long?)  Phil asked, looking concerned. 'Niet echt, ik ging um normale tijd slapen. Nou ja, voor in de vakanties dan, ik heb weer een nachtmerrie gehad.' (Not really, I fell asleep when I regularly do. Well, in holidays then, I had a nightmare again.) I answered. Dan looked up. 'Really Anna? I thought we were finally getting rid of them, what was it about then?' He said, coming over to me and pulling me into a hug, while petting my head.

'I was trying to fall asleep, as I noticed canto ostinato faded away in the thunderstorm that was setting up. The walls were coming towards me and I realized I was chained against my bed. As I fought against it, the chains were getting pulled thighter and tighter. I tried yelling to get help. As I yelped my last words, I faced death, I looked at it right in the holes were it's eyeballs used to be, as I faded out of existence. Then I woke up.' I told them. I could tell Dan was trying to hold himself up, and Phil just stared at me with big eyes.

I was used to these kind of experiences, sure they will never get 'regular' or anything, buying knew the 'style' of my attacks or "schizophrenic experiences" as Melanie called them. Dan and Phil just couldn't except the fact that I was experiencing things like voices calling me names, or a fake death. Eef was also used to it.

'Well I don't really think I'm getting on with this new method yet.' I said, kinda casually. Dan pulled me into a hug again. I pulled away and walked up to Eef.

I kneeled in front of her, as she was still quite small for a 9 years old, and I was extremely tall, as she still had to grow. My face was quite a lot lower than hers, so I looked up to her. 'Shall we go make our beds then?' I suggested. Me and Eef allways made our beds together as a ritual we did every morning. We've done it since Eef got rid of her old crib and got an actual bed. It's a little thing we do, but it has an impact on our relationship as sisters. It's kinda like mindfulness, but you're working with someone. It also kind of helped against my attacks, I think because of the mindfulness made me more aware of my own thoughts, and voices.

So we made our beds, as Emily also woke up. Afterwards, me and Eef snuggled away in a big couch in the attic, while reading our own books. Me and Eef were really close, we allways knew how the other felt by a fragment of our facial expressions, understood each other.

Dan and Phil came upstairs, and,when they found us (because at this point we were drowning into the huge couch) and they snuggled with us. 'What are you reading?' Dan asked Eef. 'Griezelbus 3.' (it's a Dutch book from the horror series 'De Griezelbus' for children.) 'Oh  aren't you a bit young for that?' I asked. 'I remember finishing the second book, and I was afraid of my own shadow for weeks.' I confessed 'No, I really like it. I've already read the first two books in school.' Eef said. 'There are different horror stories in one book, right?' Dan said. 'Shall I read one aloud for you?' Phil laughed. 'Honey aren't they a bit old for-' 'No, we aren't, please read one Daddy?' I cut Phil off. So Dan started to read.

When he finished a story about some vampire attack, he looked over at his watch to find out that it was noon. 'Carrie and Alex asked us to come over for lunch, Emma, Luke, Patty, Dottie, and Louise and Darcy are also coming (YT PARTY BITCH), so what do you think? We will probably stay there for the afternoon.' Yeah  Cool, we haven't seen them in a while. Patty allways has amazing stories, and maybe I'll receive some feedbacks for my two first videos.' I say.

An hour later we are all gathered at the huge dining table in the beautiful living room of Carrie and Alex. Carrie is singing a song and playing her ukelele, while people surrounding her are singing along. I am sitting with them, but I am talking with Patty, Luke, Dottie, and Darcy and my little sister about YouTube, internet culture and Bribry who may come over with Candice. Patty is now texting them and waiting for a response. Meanwhile they are asking about my schizophrenia.

'Do you hear the voices now?' Luke asks. 'Not now, if other people are talking to me they usually become silent. Now I am switching over to another method with meditation and lighter pills. So there's allways a dip somewhere in a medicine switch, tonight it really got worse.' I say, as I continue with telling what I've experienced this night. Patty nods. 'Isn't it a bit annoying when you have to explain to people what you're dealing with over and over again?' Patty asks. 'No not really. I keep it for myself as I can and if that's safe, because explaining it became a brainless routine, and I want to show myself, not some stupid mental disorder I have. The internet also doesn't really know this yet. But I appreciate when people are asking more about it, it shows a bit of interest and stereotypes can be taken away. For example; I don't have a split soul, and I can not suddenly be 'possessed' by that and kill you.' I say.

Patty's phone bleeps, and he looks over and turns to Carrie. 'Carrie! Candice and Bribry can come!' He slightly yells. 'Okay perfect!' Carrie says and puts her thumbs up in the air.

We talk and relax with everyone, I had an interesting conversation with Candice, Carrie, Bribry and Dottie about studying at homeschool and university. Eef was also involved in other conversations with lighter subjects, or she sat on my lap, or on one of my dads. We ended up eating dinner over there, because the ambiance was so relaxing and nice.

Then we all decided to say goodbye and go home. We shaked hands, packed our jackets and made our way home. It was dark already, and me, Eef and my dads were heading to the car. The street where Carrie and Alex lived, was quite busy and we had to pay attention to cross the road, as the cars weren't. When we got to our car, I saw a light coming from out of the corner of my eye.

I looked over, and I saw an angel, sending out light, like she had a coat of glow-in-the-dark paint, but the light she sended out, was flickering. She had white hair, except for a stroke of shimmering gold hair, just at the place where in had my big red stroke of hair. She had a long white dress, with very long sleeves. Her wings were huge, with white and silver feathers. Her pale face, her full and soft pink lips, popping blue eyes and small nose looked gorgeous.

'Come with me, you'll be in a better place.' She said, while reaching her hand to me, from the distance she was floating in. 'Don't you want to be stuck with your reputation as a Faggotbaby? Become one of us.' She said with her soft angel-like voice, that echoed away effortlessly. 'What? An Angel?' Then I saw what this was. 'I am hallucinating again! No! You won't get me and I won't become an Angel! You don't exist, I am an atheist!' I yelled.

She said nothing in response, she just took her hand, settled her teeth around her index finger, and bit it of like it was nothing. I looked over to her with a disgusted expression on my face. She ripped of her hand and took a bite of it, after she threw it on the ground. 'You're sick!' I said, trying to hold my tears. 'I'm you, don't you see?' She answered, as blood was dripping down her mouth, along her chin, on her beautiful dress. 'Now come here! You worthless piece of shit!' It looked like she was crying, but instead of tears, blood was running down her cheeks. She flew over to me, as I turned and ran across the road. I saw two headlights out if the corner of my eyes, and I looked over to see a car coming towards me.

A/N Dun dun duuunnnn... I'm sorry they there wasn't really Phan fluff in the last few chapters, I'll be working on that one in the coming chapters. What do you think about this? Please give a feedback. BYE

Eefje.