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he looked at me as if i were some crazy stalker. "how'd you figure me out chavez?" he had placed both of his hands on both of my thighs. "you have pictures of yourself everywhere, basically because you're a narcissist." i smiled, i was joking but i liked it.

he lifted me up and pulled the blanket out from underneath me, sitting my back down, now on his clothed lap. "you got hot noah, not gonna lie." i felt my cheeks get read as i tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. he looked at me as if i was the only thing he saw. "thanks. you aren't too bad yourself." i said this while placing a hand on his chest. who the fuck am i?

he chuckled softly and flipped me over, "i want you." oh my god. wait... is this happening? i always thought of my first time being with carl, not BRADIE. i feel myself take a gulp as he studies my reaction to his words. he slowly gets off of me. "are you a virgin?" how could he tell?

i nod, embarrassing. he smiles. "it's okay." i look down. "well.. do you want to?" i had to think about it for at least a second. but maybe the fact of me being with someone else, could get me over carl. "it depends on one thing." he nods as i talk, getting ready to listen. "this isn't just a fuck." he looks at me and furrows his eyebrows, "you think i'm like that?" i shrug. how would i know? i barley know him.

"i don't know." i pretend to look at the time on my phone and tell him i had to go. he nodded and i went outside, denying his offer on a ride home, which now i think about since i'm on the other side of town..

as i walk i see the one and only carl leaving a house with a wadd of cash. he spots me too and jogs over to me. "noah what're you doing out here?"

"why do you care?" i don't really know why i'm mad at him but i was so i continue to walk. he pulls my arm, "noah what's wrong?" you pinned me up against a locker, and oh oh like someone that isn't me.

"nothing." he raised his eyebrow and looked concerned, "so you're mad at me..?" i look away from his face not wanting to keep eye contact with him as i fold my arms.

"what did i do?" i raise my eyebrows and squint my eyes. is he serious? "YOU PINNED ME UP AGAINST A LOCKER!" he laughed at me. "it was hot." what? that shit scared the fuck out of me. "no. no it wasn't, it scared the shit out of me carl."

he looked down at his toes, not wanting to look me in the eye, knowing he was wrong. "i'm sorry noah i just- i get like that sometimes." i roll my eyes at his words. that's no excuse.

i lift his chin up, "carl stop being a pussy and look at me." he has a facial expression i had never seen before. he looked, sorry.

after me staring awhile carl finally asks his question again. "what are you doing on this side of town anyway?" i take a deep breath, "i was with someone." carl looks almost angry but i brush it off. "what?" he licks the inside of his cheek before asking who i was with.

"brandon." carl looks disgusted. "the fuck were you doing with brandon on the north side?" do i tell him i was at his house? wouldn't he be proud of me for that? even though he thinks i'm trying to get jake..

"he lives over here."

"did you hook up?" carl gulps. does he care about me? i shake my head telling him no and he sighs in relief, taking a step back. "but we were going to." he just sighs, now more almost sad.

"why?" i don't know actually. he attracted me.. and i don't wanna be a virgin anymore.

"god carl. these lessons are taking too long and i do wanna have sex with him. i think i could like him." carl scrunches up his face before yelling at me, "why with him?!" what's so bad about brandon? i didn't even know carl knew him.

"carl you said you and i were gonna have these lessons but i've barley learned anything!" carl shakes his head and pressed his hand against my arm. he had to go. but i were to meet him at his house later tonight. i was nervous but excited at the same time.

was tonight gonna be the night? god i hope so. i wanted him.

badly.

later that night i arrived at his house, knocking softly on the front door and taking a step back. shortly after, the door swung open revealing a surprised debbie. shit.

"i didn't know you were coming over!" she smiled, i guess she was happy to see me. i walked inside as she closed the door. i waved to liam who was standing in the kitchen and smiled. how the fuck do i get to carl?

i felt bad. i'm basically having a weird relationship with her brother instead of paying attention to her. she pulls me into her room, closing the door. i gulp and look around her room, spotting frannie asleep in her crib with a soft pink blanket wrapped around her. i was feeling a little awkward for some reason. i kept my thoughts to myself. i suddenly feel like i'm making a mistake. falling for my bestfriends brother.. the only thing i could think about is it possibly hurting me.

"noah what's wrong?" she looked at me like she usually does when she sympathizes me. i hate it but she means the best. i sit on her bed, waiting for her to sit next to me. she rubbed my back, "i love you noah." i smiled.

my bestfriend is more important than carl. anyfucking day of the week, i know who i would choose. my bestfriend. over a guy who didn't even want me.

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