Letters From War

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Dear Will,

I've seen five more suicides. Only one guy left a note, we found it in his pocket asking us to tell his wife that he loved her. He never said why he did it.

Have you seen suicides? Have you ever tried to save a life that didn't want to be saved?

Have you ever thought about suicide?

We've had so many deaths that we needed to get almost a whole new crew. The new guys don't understand what they're getting into. Not yet.

They ask me why I don't flinch when we find a body. I ask them how they haven't seen one yet.

Drowning still looks the worst. Whats the science behind it? Why does it hurt so bad? I know you have to know. Let me know?

Love,

Nico

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Neeks,

It's gory but I'll tell you to hopefully keep you away from it.

First is the pain of not having oxygen. But your instinct keeps you from breathing that water in. So you're in agony until you start to lose consciousness. That's when you breathe the water in. It's called the break point.

Once you breathe the water in it hurts even worse. Your body knows you shouldn't have breathed it in, but it had no other choice. Once you get the water in your lungs, you're too weak to swim back up. That's the end.

Eventually, you pass out.

And yes, I've seen suicides. I never got to save any of them. Soldiers see too much. They feel guilty for what they've done. They use their guns or they step on a mine. I never get to them when they're still alive.

It sucks. It really does. If they hadn't been drafted then they'd still be alive.

Why did you sign up? Why did I? I'm regretting it, Neeks. I really am.

I love you so much,

Will