The Dog Beside Her

Chapter 14☆

Alexis's POV

I took in a deep breath. In, out, in, out.

Should I tell him? Like, I mean I am not that close with him, why was I so stupid enough to decide that I would tell him my past? Apart from my best friends, there was no one else. Except my parents. And twin brother. But still.. Why did I blurt that ’I trust you too’ line out? Then why did he trust me enough to tell me about him? And the fact he’s adopted… I looked at him, to see him looking at me too, and the look in his light brown eyes shining brightly… His hair also has the same shade of colour and he looks so… irresistible… But why? I have been sitting next to him for like forever and only now I realise his awesome features? Why is that so? Am I that ignorant? I blinked once and suddenly, I recall the time that I have spent in his house. The sudden hug and the flower too. Now I realise, that I really enjoyed the times. Unknowingly.

His sensitive side, humourous side, and the fact that I think he just trusts me. I mean, who would tell others about his private stuff? Then it hits me.

I am close to him and yet I don’t know him at all.

Somehow he has this thing in him that makes me…trust him. Why? I don’t know.

Suddenly, I realised that Benjamin  was not just opposite me, he was so close to me, and our knees were actually touching. As I became more aware of that, I could feel my knee getting hotter, tingling with electricity. My hands grew cold, and I wondered how it would feel like in his arms. Wow, I can’t imagine.

“You know, it’s okay,” he whispered sending chills down my spine. In a good way.

He looks irresistible. And I trust him. Even though we have properly had known each other for less than a week, other than the teasing in class.

“I was not born here. I moved in here 3 years ago. So I was 13. I had a boyfriend. Yeah, I was too young. His name was Carter. I was too innocent. But I believed I was right. In the end…”

His mouth was in a ‘o’ shape.

“Yes.” I cupped both my hands together, looking down in guilt. “His parents found out about us having that and yeah, the angry drama. And Carter was the ‘bad boy’ of my school back then, and news leaked. It was so horrible. The glares, looks and unnecessary judging by people that don’t even know me. No one can ever understand how I felt then. My friends ditched me and how could I live? That was what I was thinking everyday and once I…”

I hesitated, before showing Benjamin my wrist, revealing a scar.

“I did this. And I fainted from the loss of too much blood.” Should I continue? I looked up, to find him gently caressing my hand… It felt nice.

“My parents were very disappointed by me and we left abruptly. Which was great, I couldn’t wait to get out of that shitty place. I no longer keep in contact with anyone there. Then, when I got here, I forced myself to stop thinking about it. I didn’t want any repeat.” A tear rolled down my eye, and I realised I was crying. I blinked and more tears came rolling down my cheeks. More tears.