The Camera That Started It All

39: What's This New Feeling?

                     Shawn's POV
I don't think I've ever seen her this hurt. Her family's falling apart and all she wants to do it fix it. Which deep down I know she knows it's  impossible. She's been crying for almost an hour non stop. I'm doing everything I can think of to try and calm her down I've tried singing,rubbing her back, rubbing her stomach, playing with her hair,stroking her arm but nothing's working. I scooped her up off the couch and carried her up to our room and lie her down on our bed. She's still uncontrollably sobbing.
"Evelyn listen to me. I get it sucks right now but you'll get through this babe. It's gonna be rough before it's easy if that makes any sense."
She looked up at me with her beautiful blue eyes puffy and tear stains on her cheeks from crying for nearly two hours now. I tucked her in under the covers and lied down next to her and pulled her close to me.
"Shawn I'm sorry I'm just scared because of everything going on I don't know what to do. I can't fix it. Nothing I say will make it right. I'm sorry I blew up on you I didn't mean to it just happened."
"It's alright. I know you didn't mean it. I'm not mad. People say things when they're scared or stressed."
I grabbed my phone and earbuds so hopefully listening to music would calm her down more. "I think you made a sleep playlist on my phone. We'll talk more in the morning you need to get some rest right now hun."
I wiped the rest of her tears away.
"Ok. Good night. Love you."
"Night love you too."
She put the earbuds in and begun listening to music and I kissed her forehead and just watched and made sure she stayed asleep for a while until I dozed off. I checked the time on the clock. 9:03 am she's still asleep and the earbuds fell out. I gently slid my phone away so I could charge it and I hope the noise wouldn't wake her thankfully it didn't. I walked around to tidy up the house so Ev wouldn't have to worry about anything. After I finished Evelyn's normal check list I started to make breakfast.
     Evelyn's POV
I look at the clock and see it's 10:00 figured Shawn was making breakfast so I should get started on my to do list. I walked downstairs to try to find the laundry basked but no luck.
"Everything's hanging in the bathroom!"
"Dryer?"
"Stuff's in it! I did everything for you today sweetie"
"Oh thank you!"
I feel a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders once he said he did everything for me this morning. He's almost done making breakfast and usually as soon as I wake up I'm starving but today I'm not.
"OH MY THIS IS EVERYTHING!!"
And there's my appetite.
Shawn laughed once he saw my face light up at my favorite childhood breakfast placed right in front of me. Pancakes with fresh fruit,maple syrup,topped off with dark chocolate with bananas.
I guess Shawn could see my excitement because he took a photo of a happy me.
"What's on the agenda today? What're we doing E?"
"Ugh I don't know. Sleep?"
"Haha oh wait you're being serious."
We finished eating then put our plates in the sink and put everything else away. But I still need a way to relax. Shower time. I walked into our bedroom to get my phone,speaker,and clothes.
"See you in a hour babe."
"Oh hahha I'm laughing on the inside boyo"
About 5 minutes into my shower one of Shawn's songs started playing and he's either laughing,screaming at something on tv,or singing along.
"DO YOU GOT PLANS TONIGHTTTT?!"
Yep he's singing along. I open chatter on my phone and open the bathroom door a crack so I could film him and he's having his own damn concert in the bedroom. Air guitar and all.
"I CANT SEEM TO GET YOU OFF MY MINDDDDDDD!!!"
I saved it to my memories before I posted it.
"When you're your own fan" and post hehe. Back to my shower. Few minutes later he must've seen it due to him screaming.
"EVELYN ROSE!!!!!!"
I act like nothing happened and finish my shower. I admit I felt a bit better but still not 100% there. Maybe it's since this is something I've never experienced before. I don't know. I feel sad and scared. I mean I've felt both these emotions before who hasn't? But I haven't experienced them BOTH at the same time before.