Fangirl; shawmila

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camila

today is a terrible day, a day which i dread. today is the one year anniversary of nicole's death.

nicole was a bright girl. she was way too young to leave this world. although she had to deal with depression and bullies, she never let her smile disappear. they say even when she died, her smile was still on her face

buzz buzz

my alarm went off indicating that it's 5:30 am. i groaned knowing i had to visit nicole's grave. i flopped over and pressed the snooze button on my phone

once i took a shower and changed my outfit, i opened the door and closed it slowly, making sure not to make any noise

shawn was still here and i didn't want to wake him up. he's not a light sleeper but he's not a heavy sleeper either

as i made my way to the doorway, i put on my shoes and left the house without waking shawn up

little did i know, he was already awake and watching me leave without saying a word

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it was cold, gloomy, basically what you see in movie when someone dies

i made my way up to where nicole was buried

"hey there, nicky" i said while placing the flowers down. it gave this depressing place some color but it didn't lighten up the mood

third pov

there were some flowers placed down beside her grave. "looks like your old lover stopped by today, huh?" camila smiled because she had some company here today

camila took off her jacket, and placed it down so she can sit without getting her jeans dirty

"i'm sorry i didn't visit you earlier. i was scared, i was scared of facing you again. i was scared that if i came here i would lose it. i was scared that if i saw you like this again, i would do something terrible" camila's voice was shaky as she kept talking to the grave

a hint of her deep down hoped that the person who was laying 6 feet under would just magically appear and accept all her apologies

a hint of her hoped that she would come and hug her, to say goodbye to her properly

"i kept blaming you for what happened. i kept saying it was your fault, it was all your fault that you died" her eyes were now stinging. tears were soon to fall out of them. "but it wasn't, it was all my fault"

those were the tears that were built up through this year, and they all decided to fall now. she became a broken mess. her sobs were shaking, her breath unsteady

after what seemed like hours and hours, she stopped crying as the tears dried. she wiped the remaining off her face and stood up grabbing her jacket and dusting it off

"ah, sorry for the breakdown cole" she flashed a broken smile at the grave that wouldn't talk back to her. then, she slowly made her way to the exit of the cemetery

but suddenly, she turned around to say one more thing as a big smile formed on her face

"don't miss me too much lil sis! i'll come back soon"

camila waved at the grave, and then left. oblivious of who was watching her the whole time

the figure was standing there and watching her talking to the unresponsive grave, made its way to it

"so my camila, is your big sister, huh nicole? who would've guessed" a big grin was plastered on his face

"the game just got even more interesting, huh? looks like i'm going to have to stay with camila for a longer time then initially planned" he said chucking at his own words

just as he was leaving the cemetery, he could have sworn that he heard a voice, but decided to just shrug it off and leave back to the house

"you won't succeed, shawn mendes. not this time you won't"

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surprise motherfUcKeR

this was so creepy and sad alexa play i know what you did last summer 🤧

go ahead and start making your own theories, i want to see what you think this is all about

love you all !