Magic|Jesse Lingard

17. Ungrateful

"Hey Jess, can we talk?" I heard Marcus call from downstairs

We returned from the world up 2 months ago after losing our last 2 matches. We came 4th overall but we all know why we failed.

Aura was constantly on our minds. I remember looking out on the sub benches or maybe even the crowd to see her bright smile.

But she wasn't there.

My good luck token was taken away from me.

Marcus and I went back to our shared house but haven't really communicated since we got here, so hearing his voice ask to speak to me is a bit of a shock.

"Uh...yea" I ran downstairs to see Marcus sat at the dinner table with an old picture of him and Aura

"Marcus...are you OK?" I questioned carefully as I couldn't take any more accusations from him

"No...I want my big sister back." That's when he completely broke.

Yes Marcus cried when she first left but they weren't real tears of emotion, they were angry tears, tears of hate. They were directed to me instead of his sister.

Now he was sobbing loudly, uncontrollably weeping. Without thinking, I wrapped my arms around him and he welcomed the gesture, holding tight.

"She was always there for me, even when we weren't together... now she's abandoned me." His crying became more controlled

"She will be back Bean"

"But when? What if something happens to her and no one can tell us. What if she's more miserable than before?" He whispered

"She would come back if she was still sad b--" I was cut off but both of our phones notifying us of something

We looked to see that Aura had posted on her new Instagram page:

FeelinYaAura: the only people I need in my life Jaycee.k, LoganBoi, halleB, JohnnyCrzy, NickDaBeast (why do we all have usernames that make us sound 12😂)

❤25k likes 👥10k comments

Comments

halleB ily my British baby

NickDaBeast: coz we are 12 mentally😂

Jaycee.k: 😘

LoganBoi: ❤

User1: is no one going to point out that it's been a month since she left everything and just pops back up with a new squad???

FeelinYaAura: User1 these guys aren't new, they've been by my side ever since day 1 in the states which was 2 years ago. And I understand people are confused about why I randomly left the UK but that's in the past. I have found myself again, I'm happy again and I just need to drop everything from my past.

Marcusrashford: FeelinYaAura glad to know that I actually mattered so much to you that I could be replaced. Maybe it's a good thing we don't talk anymore

Shaderoom: 👀👀👀

----
"She's such a bitch. Did us growing up together mean nothing to her? I'm her brother for fuck sake"

"Bean... This may not be the best time to tell you this...but I'm moving out." Although Marcus and I are on better terms, I feel like it's better for us to go our separate ways for a while.

I saw the upset in his eye increase if it was even possible.

"Oh," was all he replied with

"I just think the two of us around each other is toxic at the moment. Maybe soon we can resolve our differences but now I just need to go."

Marcus nodded before speaking

"Where are you going?"

"I bought a house in London."

"London!? That's ages away" for some reason at this moment, I noticed how young Marcus really was. He's only 20 and has achieved so much but he's never really been alone before. He's so close to his childhood and all those memories that it's taken over, he feels vulnerable.

"We are still mates alright. I'm a phone call away and I will drop everything to come to see you if necessary." Marcus nodded again before standing

"I need to get some fresh air"

"I might be gone by the time you come back"

We stared at each other before embracing in a huge hug.

"Please don't cut me out too." The younger boy begged

It broke my heart to see him so alone like this.

"I would never, if you call I will pick up" he nodded before heading towards the door

"See ya later Asparagus"

"See ya around Bean"

And with that, he was gone.

I went upstairs and grabbed my suitcases. I loaded them in the car one by one. I left my bed so Marcus could use it for a spare room.

Before I left I went into Aura's old room. It was still the way she left it.

I went into her wardrobe and pulled out one of my hoodies I gave her. It smelt like her so I put it on.

I made my way to the car, put the key in the ignition and came out of the driveway. As I was travelling down the road I saw Marcus sat at a bench, hood up, and I could tell he was crying.

I pulled up slowly and rolled down the window

He looked up and smiled weakly

"It was never your fault you know," he said

"Nah, it was."

"I'm sorry mate. I shouldn't have lashed out the way I did. At the world cup and when I walked in on you and her. It's just that she was my sister--"

"She still is."

"Nah, if she was she would have called by now. If she doesn't want me in her life anymore I'm not going to cry over an ungrateful bitch."

I nodded before looking at the time.

"I better go... I'll see you a training"

He waved before walking away.

Great, I've now distanced myself from both Rashford's... I need some magic to fix this mess.