Magic|Jesse Lingard

26. The End

Marcus drove me to Jesse's place.

When I got to the front door, I froze. I looked behind me but saw that Marcus had already left

You got this Aura.

I took a deep breath and knock on the large oak door. Within seconds, it swung open, revealing a stressed looking Jesse.

Without saying anything, he let me in. I left my shoes by the entrance and made my way in.

"Let's talk in my room." He leads the way to the familiar place where we shared so many memories.

Over on the left was his Xbox and that's where I beat him on FIFA that one time (although I'm pretty sure he let me win). On the right was his dressing table where I practised makeup on him once. And in the middle was his bed, where we shared kisses and intimate moments.

We sat on the bed and faced each other, neither of us saying a word.

I sighed loudly before speaking:

"Jesse, just tell me how you feel"

His eyes suddenly shot dagger through me.

"Tell you how I feel, yea that sounds easy." he spat sarcastically

"You want to know how I feel Auralee? I feel abandoned, I feel lost. I feel like if I say the wrong thing you'll go and run away again. I feel like you never cared, I feel like you never loved me. At night I wonder if you genuinely wanted me or my money, I feel so lost because I know you are toxic for me but I love you so much that I can't leave you. I thought I was going to marry you Aura. I wanted to have kids with you, I wanted to die old with you and spend eternity--" Jesse's voice broke so much that I started to cry

"Don't, Aura. Not the waterworks"

"I'm sorry Jesse but I can't help it. I know you are feeling this way because of me"

"Yea no shit"

I glared at him before continuing:

"I hate that I am the one who gives you grief and worry. I hate how you actually think that I don't love you, I hate how I can't be trusted by you anymore. But in my defence--"

"HA, are you serious? You are going to justify yourself...I don't want your bullshit anymore Aura. I want the Auralee Rashford that I messaged 3 years ago. I want the 19-year-old girl who was easy to talk to, the girl who wouldn't take any bullshit. I want the Auralee who thinks about others and not just herself. I love you, baby, I really do, but jeez you're fucking selfish"

I sat and revelled in his words.

"Wait...you wanted to marry me...as in past tense?"

"Aura, I don't think I can do this anymore...you and me. We tried when you came back but I just can't."

I had no idea how to feel, the love of my life wanted to leave.

I nodded and began to speak, but I was held back by the words that caught in my throat.

Once I composed myself, I pushed forward:

"I know this is the best decision for us, but don't you want to at least try and find a better solution?" I was desperate at that point, I can't lose Jesse.

"I'm sorry Aura...I think it's best if we don't see or speak to each other...ever again"

My heart shattered into small, emotionless pieces.

"Jess" I whispered

He began apologising but I couldn't hear him over my heartbeat.

My kind whizzed through all the memories we had together