Magic|Jesse Lingard

25. please

I was at in the living room with Marcus, recalling the argument that Jesse and I just had.

I came to the end of the story and Marcus just sat and stared at me.

"What?" I exclaimed

"You can't be serious. You are both delusional"

Ok, so that wasn't the response I was expecting

"Ummm...how?" I was expecting Marcus to go full crazy ape on Jesse's ass but I guess not.

"Well, first of all, I get the laurel--"

"Logan,"

"Whatever. I get that he's your friend but he made you seem like a really bad person. It's not just the comment Aura and you know it."

It was true, over the past week tweets and Instagram comments have been either directed to me or were about me.

"I guess,"

"Why is he so pissed?"

I hesitated before replying as I'm not proud of the answer

"We...we fucked a few times. I made sure he knew that it meant nothing and he seemed to want more."

I was looking down at my lap and when I looked up, Marcus was just staring at me

"Stop"

"No, because it seems you're hiding a lot these days, it's like Jesse has a reason to be pissed with you"

"Please stop, please don't hate me too...I can't handle you hating me too"

I was now in a state, I knew that things with the boys and I wouldn't exactly be the same, but I just want this whole situation to go away.

"I'm sorry. I've made huge mistakes in my life and I know I'm now paying the price but I can't take it. Jesse is obviously angry about it but refuses to talk, you have seemed to forgive me but every now and then we seem to fight about it. I haven't properly talked to the others about it, fuck, I haven't even talked to the other boys. I've lost everything Marcus, please just let me keep you. You, as my brother, is all I really need"

I held my head in my hands but felt a strong pair of arms wrap around me.

"I don't hate you. I never will. Maybe we need to get you and Jesse talking as soon as he's ready" I nodded into his shoulder.

I was about to reply when my phone buzzed

I'm ready to talk x

"I guess that moment is now"