Jesse and Auralee have never met in person. They follow each other on Instagram and Twitter, they text, call and FaceTime all the time and Aura even watches all his matches. But due to her life being in LA, they never had the chance to meet.
But th...
What's up guys, it's Aura coming at you with a new video.
So I know I haven't posted in a good 8 months and there is a reason for that.
8 months ago, I moved back to the UK as I felt like I needed a changed from the LA scene. It was all great, I was reunited with my brother, Marcus Rashford, and my best friends, Kyle Walker and Harry Winks. I also met my then-boyfriend Jesse Lingard for the first time after talking online for 2 years.
A month after I got back, I was offered a job with the England football team and I took it straight away. I could travel with the most important people in my life.
The whole tournament was amazing, we got further than we ever thought and everything was fine.
Until a certain situation.
I can't go into detail coz I could get sued, but it did make a decision for me. I randomly left the boys whilst they were at training and instead of flying back to England, I came back to LA.
Beforehand, I had written a note to the boys telling them that I needed space, and it was true. I had to figure myself out. I was in a funk and I couldn't get out.
Not long after landing in LA I found out some other news...
I was pregnant.
At the time I was scared but excited. But I couldn't tell the father of the child, Jesse.
I went through with the pregnancy but at 2 months I had a miscarriage. This was the most difficult time of my life.
I went into a depression state, but I wasn't medically depressed.
I began to dance again and I focused on practising my craft and skill, nothing was more important. More recently, I had realised that I know what I was here for, I had found my personal happiness and felt ready to start bringing people back in.
But like usual, Auralee made a mistake.
I posted a picture of me and the squad and captioned "the only people I need". For some reason, the fact that I had basically completely removed my brother and boyfriend didn't help me see that posting this would cause a lot of damage.
I had upset my brother, he thought I didn't care and looking back I can see why he was hurt.
Marcus, I doubt you'll see this but I do truly love you. You are my little brother and I'm so, so sorry for leaving you alone like that.
As well as hurting my brother, I hurt Jesse. I actually saw him last night...by accident though.
It turns out we are both on holiday in Florida and I had bumped into him.
Obviously, Jesse didn't want to see me and he left.
But one thing stuck with me:
He had told me that Marcus called me an "ungrateful bitch"
And he's right.
I didn't respect those who were there for me.
I didn't treat them the way they deserved.
I was selfish and only thought about me and not the consequences that would occur.
I'm sorry guys. I really am.
I don't even think I'm going to post this video...too personal.
To whoever may see this... I'm sorry.
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I turned off the camera a leaned back on my chair.
"Aura?" I turned to see Halle at the door.
"Hiya" I smiled weakly
"You should find him and talk to him. He needs to know about everything." Halle encouraged
"I want to but you saw how he reacted at the beach...he hates me" I felt the tears sting my eyes
"Aura, he doesn't hate you. He's just hurt."
I sat silent for a while before reaching over for my laptop.
"You're going to talk to him then?"
"No, I'll send him the video. Let's just hope he won't ignore it"
Before Halle could reply, I had pressed send. I closed the tabs and was face to face with my background picture
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"I'm so sorry, I let you down too."
"It wasn't your fault Aura!" Halle had pulled me into a hug when she saw my state
"I know, it just feels like it. Anyway, we should get to dance" I closed the laptop and placed it on my desk.
I grabbed my phone and it started buzzing
"Oh my god" I whispered
"What?" Halle asked in a worried manner
"Jesse, he-he's calling me!"
"Fucking pick up you idiot"
I gave her the finger before picking up the phone:
"Hello?" I asked politely
"We need to talk." I could hear his voice break
"Ok, do you mind stopping at the dance studio. I have to go in today"
"Sure, text me the address." Before I could answer, Jesse hung up.
I faced Halle and spoke:
"He wants to talk"
I was so worried about Jesse screwing it up... I hope I don't at this rate.
