No One Accepts Me

Chapter 13

What has been bothering me the most the whole day was the fact that I need to talk to Brad. I need some answers; did he or did he not beat up Chris? When lunch finally came, I stood right up and out the door I go.

Once I reach the canteen, I scan the room for that blondie. Well, there he is. Sitting with his friends, laughing and talking while wearing their varsity jackets. I start to walk to them, until the girl that was beaten up by Olivia stands in front of me.

"Hi," she greets, "I'm Ally. . . Thanks for saving me yesterday." 

"No problem." 

I give a glance at Brad. Good, he's still sitting there. 

"What can I do to repay you?" 

"Nothing. It's fine. . . Really." 

"Okay." 

"Nice seeing you."

"You, too"

She walks to an empty table. Finally, I don't mind her thanking me, but she came at the wrong time. I mean, yes, I deserve that thank you, but have better timing next time.  

I reach their table and they stop talking. All of Brad's friends' eyes are on me. Looking at me, blankly. It's like they expect me to do an exorcism or something.  

"Hey, Carrie." Brad greets with fear. 

"We need to talk." I say sternly. I swear, right when I said something, he flinched. 

"Okay..." He stands up and looks at his friends. They give each other some looks that I'm pretty sure are "bro codes" or something. 

"What is it?" He asks, trying to hide his fear. No, you cannot hide your fear from me. You're scared, shit-less.

  I grab his arm and lead him to the hallway, far away from the cafeteria.   

"Do you know what happened to Chris?" I ask him sternly. 

"I don't know what you're talking about."

I can't believe this guy. Is he really going to lie?

"Look, I know you're the one to beated up Chris last night." 

"He deserved it."

"No, he didn't!" I snap at him. How dare he say that? What did Chris to do make Brad so angry at him? To make him snap and beat him up? Is it because Chris is with me now? Jesus, if that's the case, he better move on. There are more girls prettier than me out in the world.  

"I only beated him up a little."

"A little?! He is in the hospital, Brad! How is that a little?!"

"At least I didn't kill him."

"If you did, I will separate your head from your body and feed it to the tigers." I hissed. 

He steps back a little. I look at him in the eye and he looks like he's about to cry. 

"What happened to you?" I ask him. 

"What do you mean?"

"You used to be this really nice guy I used to know, and now you're just. . . A jerk!" 

"Well, it's all because of you, Carrie." 

"So you blame me?!"

"Yes."

"When you broke up with me, just to be with Valerie, I committed suicide! You were the reason why I ended up in that hospital bed. You're the reason why I have this scar on my wrist! Can't you see, Brad?! YOU'VE DONE ENOUGH DAMAGE! SO JUST. LEAVE. ME. ALONE!"

Brad shakes his head and looks away. A tear rolls down his eyes. Is that to tell me that he actually has feelings? That he's human after all? He blamed me for his change! Me! Did I make him try to kill himself? Did I do anything that could make him cut himself and hate his life? No. I did nothing. 

Before leaving, he shakes his head; gives me one last look and walks away. 

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When school finished, I visited Chris in the hospital. He looked worse than I imagined. We talked and I asked him who did this to him and my suspicion was right. It was Brad! Although, he said not to worry too much. But how could I not?! I'm his girlfriend and he is laying in the hospital bed. I can't help but cry. Cry on how much shit has happened during this school year; cry on how much my life has changed.

I used to be happy; I used to smile so much. But now, ever since I moved to that fucking school, everything went down the drain. I want to be that little girl again. I want to be that little girl who was smiling and making everyone happy. I want to be that little girl who played hopscotch with her friends and skipping rope. I want to be that little girl who was filled with life. 

What happened now? Does this happen to everyone? Did I deserve this punishment? Was it because I was too happy that God wanted me this way? Was it because I made everyone laugh and smile because of my stupid little jokes and my stupid little pig tails? What happened?

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Heya, Gryphons!

I won't really update daily because I don't have internet in the place I am in now. So this is it for today. Hope you guys like it! Oh, and Ally will be in the next chapter and further more ;)

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~~Angelina~~