Forgive Me?..

Chapter two!

Chapter Two; Home Sweet Home, Or not?

Bella p.o.v

I've been home for two weeks now. The first few days were the worse. The pain is still bad now but i'm dealing. People may not agree with the way do, but hey i'm dealing aren’t i?

I've had over 35 missed calls of the man who broke my heart.

damn, why does he do this to me? Was it not enough for me to hurt me by being unfaithful? Humiliating me? Why does he have to carry on now, can’t he just leave me alone!

i reach under my bed to get the box my grandma gave me before she died. This is where i keep the things that keep me alive. It holds a small blade and small bottle of vodka. You see when i cut and i see the blood dripping down my arms or my legs and can feel the pain leaving my body, blood lets me know i'm still alive. Its the pain i hate. Thats where the vodka comes in, i'll drink my self silly  and i'll be all numb.

As i press the blade into my arm, i hiss as the point goes in. Then its just pure bliss.. i drag  the blade down my arm then pull it out and toss it back in the box. I reach for my bottle again, i'm already half way through. I watch as the blood drips down my arm onto the floor.

drop...drop...drop....drop...

its like a lullaby, yeah a lullaby. My new lullaby.

i smile as i let the blackness claim me.

 Edwards p.o.v

Shit! Shit! Shit! What the hell just happen? I was just about to leave to go pick Bella up to show her what i did to our meadow as a surprise when Tanya shows up. Great.

“what do you want tanya? I’m about to leave to pick Bell-“

I barely finish my sentence when she jumps in.

“Thats where your wrong my edward, you dont have to pretend anymore. I know you dont love bella, you love me. Well i’m here baby, its all ok.”

What the hell?

I’m just about to tell her where to go when her eyes turn a funny colour, they go dark green and start to shine, i cant take my eyes away, even if i wanted to. I start to see that tanya is beautiful, and i want run my fingers through her soft hair, feel her lips against mine, woooh what going on? I love Bella, no Tanya.

My last thought was of Bella before Blackness surrounded me.

The next thing i know bella is the room, and i’m half way having sex with Tanya! Oh Bella’s eyes were the worst. The pain showed so clearly it nearly brought me to my knees. My baby, no, no, i will not lose her. NO!

I begin to tell her its not what she thinks, which is a big mistake! She flips. She gone, my bella gone.

I fell my heart being ripped out and torn infront of me.

Hate fills my body as i hear tanya’s sick voice.

“Baby, come back to bed. The bitch is gone now. You dont need her she was nothing but a worthless, ug-“

I didnt let her finsish.

“ YOU STUPID WHORE! BELLA IS MY WORLD. YOU ARE NOTHING MORE THAN DIRT ON MY SHOE! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS? YOUR GOING TO PAY, I’LL BE BACK AS SOON AS I GET MY GIRL BACK. SHOW YOURSELF OUT. NOW.”

“ edward! You dont mean that, your just confused. I’ll be everything you want me to be, i’ll be bettter tha-“

This bitch just keeps on pushing me.

“BELLA IS MY WORLD. MY EVERYTHING. MY REASON FROM LIVING. AND YOU, YOU’VE TAKEN IT FROM, YOUR WORTHLESS.”

“You’ll pay for this, i promise you now. SCREW YOU EDWARD CULLEN.”

Hey, your all gonna hate me right now:( but i wont be able to carry on this story for a while.

i was involved in a car crashed a few weeks ago, i'm sill recoving, i have loads of exams coming, plus theres my job and my granda passed aay last night.

if you's would support me through this with ideas+help i'll get forgive me update when i can, so sorry guys!