Forgive Me?..

Chapter 11

i'll never stop breaking the law for you; Emeli Sande

chapter 11

make me forget..

bella p.o.v

Ever start to feel content in life? Like maybe, just maybe everything going to be ok again? That's how i feel right now.

now im not saying everything is perfect, cause im not. But i realised that i didnt deserve what happened to me, none of them girls did. i still have issues, alot of issues.. mainly with how i look and i dont believe im good enough for edward. Im not pure no more.

Edward hates it when i say this. This is the only time i see him lose his temper. But he knows that i'll get better and accept myself in time, maybe...

As it stands i havent had a nightmare in over a week. i either doont dream or its me and edward in our medow. With that thought i dift off into my dream..

Cold fingers trail down my cheek, bringing me out my day dream. Smiling, knowing its edward. i slowly open my eyes,  i stare into his bright gold eyes, before letting them trail over his face, his neck slowly making my way down his body. Taking him all in before making my way back to his eyes.

Eyes that are full of love.

"hi sleepyhead." smiling softly

"hii"

Still stroking my cheek, he leans now. Stopping only inches away from my lips.

i look up, still staring into his eyes; losing myself in him before i bring my arms up and wrap them round his neck then i close the rest of the distance.

ahh. it feels like i waited years to feel his lips again. He been so careful with me since i came out of hospital. But i dont want him to. Im not going to break! i tighten my arms around with him, holding myself closer. i can feel every outline of his body. His hard chest pressing into my soft warm chest. One of his hand wrap themselves into my  hair holding my face to his. his other hand goes to the bottom my back pushing me into him. I rush of heat goes to my area. I can feel him, hard against me. Its different from all the other times, i dont feel disgusted, i feel hot and ready. I can feel edwards tongue stroking against my lips, asking to be let in, i willing open my mouth. The kiss deepens. Our tongues fighting for the lead, which he easilys wins. Stroking gently then going to hard and punishing. i realise that our body have taking their own patttern. Rocking against each other./ Edwards cold hard hand goes under my top, slowly making their way against my waist feeling my belly up to my chest where he strokes and pulls gently. Some how we made it to my bed where he gently walks me back until i feel the bed against the back of my knees, pushing lightly i fall back bringing edward with me so he laying between my legs, one hand up my top stroking my breast, the other making there way to my joggers. He breaks our kiss, but not moving far, both of us breathing heavly he stares into my eyes, asking a silent question. I nod my head. I need him, so much. He starts  to kiss his way down my neck, i move my hands into his soft hair, pulling gently. His free hand has made his way down into my joggers, he touching me there, where all i have know is pain, he is giving me pleasure and love. He stroking me gently through my panties. He lifts of me gently only to take of my top and his top, next goes my bra. He stares at my chest, i move my arms to cover myself, embarrsed, he must be disgusted with all the scars, i can feel tears welling up in my eyes, i turn my head.

"Bella...my love... dont hide yourself from me" He softly speaks into my ear.

I turn my head to look at him. He notice im crying. He looks pained.

"You.Are.Beautiful.. I love you, so much. All these scars mean to me is that the girl i love and is laying in my arms has come through so much. Most people would have crumbled but not my bella, my bella carried on. Your so strong, been through so much, so much stuff you didnt deserve. Dont hide yourself from me baby, let me love you."