Forgive Me?..

Chapter three!

Chapter Three; I am worthless.

Bella p.o.v

Its been 2 months since i last saw Edward. i brought i new phone because he was ring me every day and i just couldnt deal with it.

i was sat in the middle of no where, crying, wanting it was to end when a tall, handsome man came up to me, i was scared at first but then i realized that i didnt care if this man was going to hurt me or kill me, i just wanted a way out the world; he was my way out. As soon as the man spoke i knew he was gonna give me a way out, he was gonna take the pain away.

"Bella, bella, bella, come with me; i know all about this edward, i know how much he hurt you, i know how much pain you are in right now, but listen to me bella i can take it away; come with me. i'll make the pain go away bella.."

That last sentence remind me of my near death with James, when he bite me and edwa- NO i will not think about, no. this is my last chance, if go with this man then he can take my pain away, i know he will.

"i'll come with you only if you promise that you take away the pain right now, please i'm begging you i cant cope, i see his face everywhere, in everything i can, i cant breathe, please just make it go away"

" Bella i want you to take these pills, it will help i promise, it will make you forget, go numb. i'm going to look after you from now on, you can trust me, i will not hurt you, i promise"

This man, whose name i still dont know, pulls out a small clear bag with small white pills in it. he take two out and hands me them, and then takes out the bottle of vodka in my bag. i know in my head i should run as fast as i can to get away from him but i dont want to. i want him to make it better, so swallow the pills. Within minutes i start to feel all tingle, and funny, and i try to think of edwards face, yet its all a blur, all i can think about is how good i feel right now. God i love this feeling, i feel amazing, like i'm on top of the world, This man has saved me, he kept his  promise!

i take the mans hand and begin to walk away with him.

As i walk away i feel the memerios begin to leave me, i begin to forget all the promises edward made, everytime he said i love you, everytimehe kissed me, hugged me, everything, i forget the cullens. they all the same. i was just some toy to them. i start to feel pure hatred towards them. who do they think they are? messing with me, not no more. this is the real bella.i'm back where i belong and no one is gonna take this from me.

I realize we've reached a small house, the man begins to talk again.

"Bella this is your new home, i hope you like it. i only ask of you to do as your ask, that is it. Now bella you need to realize why Edward cheated on you ok? i'm gonna make it clear for you so you can become who your meant to be. Your worthless Bella, your ugly, your weak, your fall over your own stupid feets. Edward was sick of you. you were you'll there for they own amusment, same with jacob. they all used you. You were a toy to them. Thye had a bet going bella, when would hyou crumble, who would you sleep with first. so listen to me ok? Your gonna become a whore, because that is who you are. your gonna be trained to fight, your gonna go out there and fight to win me some money. your gonna let me do what ever the hell they want to, to your body. you are mine. If you do this for me i will carry on giving you these pills+alcohol to take away the pain. if you refuse to do anything i say, do something  wrong, or lose a fight, i will punish you."

He was right. i am worthless. I am ugly. I am weak. I am everything he said and more. i deserve to be gtreated like a whore, i deserve to be beaten. i should be ouit there fighting, should be doing this. i nod my head as he leads me into the house, he throws me into a room which only one bed in the middle, its cold, dark and horrible in here. theres only one thin blanket on the bed , theres a set of draws, with condoms, acohol, pills, knizes and everything. i realize that this is what i deserve. he throws me on the bed, he starts to take my clothes of, i dont stop him, i just lay there and accept thatv this is what i am, he kissing me trying to get tongue in my mouth, but for some reason i dont dont let him.

"Open your mouth now you silly little bitch"

He hits me so hard i fall of the bed, he picks me back up, gets some rope of the draws and ties my hands to the bed post, then ties my ankles. he grabs a knife and starts to cut my legs. im screaming in agony, crying, begging him to stop.

"STUP UP DIRTY LITTLE WHORE, YOU DESERVE THIS. YOUR LUCKY I'M ACTUALLY GONNA FUCK YOU, UNGRATEFUL CUNT"

i stop crying, stop screaming let him have his way. im naked and he moves on top on me and begins to kiss and suck my breast, i moan in pain and kneels on my legs.

"Thats right, i knew you'd be easy, little slut"

"YOUR GONNA LIKE THIS, I'M GONNA FUCK YOU SO HARD YOU HEAR? YOUR GONNA BE SCREAMING MY NAME YOU LITTLE WHORE"

he pushes into bme, i scream out in pain. He slaps me for screaming. God it hurts, it  hurts so much.

By the time its over i'm layed in bed, bleeding for every part of my body. he smack, beat me, whipped me for prentending i didnt like it. he just ups and leave.

I know that this gonna be my life from now on. i'm a whore. i'm a fighter. I'm worthless.

i guesss edward and jacob got what they both wanted ey? i've finially crumbled. i've finailly given up, i dnt wanna wake up. im a whore because of them i let them use. i let them all use me, well, well done guys you's have finially broken me. it wasnt enough to break my heart, you had to break my soul, my mind and my body.

This is my life.

Days turned in to weeks. by now men where coming to my room everynight now. i've learnt how to fight. i get put in the ring every friday. Your gonna laugh but it turns out i can damn well fight! I've had 6 fights so far and i've knock every single one of them out, and they havent all been girls. im good. i love the feel off fighting, males me feel alive.

my body is covered is cuts and bruises. i have scars all over my body. The man who brought me here i only see him on fridays where he'll come watch me fight then come into my room on the night, he still hasnt told me his name. the last and only time i ask i got beaten more than ever, could mover for days. i guess he really doesnts want me to know his name, its eithwer that or he has an awful name. i start to remember edward but i dont want to, so i take a handle full of pills with some vodka, and the last think i see before the darkness comes is his face..