Forgive Me?..

Chapter five!

You don't believe his stories, you know that they're all lies..#

Chapter five.

Bella p.o.v

I could feel his ice cold breathe on my cheek as he wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his hard as stone chest. I can't breathe, everything is coming back, god, why arent these pills working. Why the hell am i still in his freaking arms!!! Come on bell's sort it out, this dick cheated on you! And jacob, he no fucking better!

With that last thought going through my head i push with of my strengh to get edward away from me, it works. he takes a few steps back, but not enough, i need him out. Out of this room, this build, my life; for good. He just stood there staring at me, i can the hurt in his eyes. Oh, he hurt is he? Oh my bad, i sorry that i had to end your stupid game! Urgh, a with in seconds all the pain comes back from when i walked in on him and that slut; i cant even say the bitch's name.

"what the hell are you doing here! i left to get away from you, to leave the pain and shame behind! What you want to rub it in some more ey? About how little bella is a fucked up whore? And you! you were supposed to  be my bestfriend, but where were you when i needed you ey Jacob, where? This was all just a silly little game to the both of you's, wey i quit, i dont wanna play no more. You have both done enough damage, is it not enough that i have to take pills to forget? I have to drink to make me numb so i cant feel the pain any more, i have to  cut so i can see some of the shame leaving my body! i am forced to let men use me and beat me because that is all i'm worth, because of you. the only thing that i can do right is fight. But you just had to come and take it all away, well, well done guys, you won. i'm not your bella no more. You've done it, i am nothiing, you have destory my heart, my soul, my mind and my body, so just leave."

As i ranted on, i felt tears pour down my face, my nails digging into my hands so hard that its draw blood to the surface, shit! why do i have to be so fucking weak!!

"Bella, i didnt know i was having sex with tanya; honestly"

"--HAHHAA! you really want me to buy that bull!"

"Bella just tell me you'll hear me out ok? let me tell you what happen, because baby i love you. i swear i'm sorry, so sorry. you are not worthless or a whore and baby i will KILL every single one of them who has touched you"

Should i hear him? what difference is it gonna make? maybe there was a mistake or something? ia spark of hope flares in me; NO! i know what i saw!

"Ok i'll hear you out but after that you go, the pair of yoous."

"Ok, thankyou Bella; i was getting ready to come pick  you, i was going to take you to our meadow, i had it filled with candles and flowers, it was perfect. I couldnt wait to see your face! Then Tanya showed up(as he said her name a growel excaped his mouth) she was going on about how she was going to make it better and how everything was ok now that she is here, i started to tell her that i have my bella to go get when her eyes went a funny colour and the last thing i remember is her smirking before everything went black, when i came round we were in my bedroom and you were stood at the door i was about to go to you when i heard tanya moan and i looked down i realize i was having sex with her! And bella baby when you left i kicked her arse out of there! i was shouting at her, and  i wanted to go to you but i just had to firgure out what had happen first before i went to find so i i could explain, Alica called saying that she seen what had happen, and saying that Tanya has this new gift where she can control a person my just looking into their eyes, and to the person it feels like they asleeep but that person will act how she wants them to, but she can only control that person once! Bella i'm sorry, so sorry. i should have stopped you straigyt away i shouldnt have let it get this bad, but alica told me to let you calm down and that i should give you a day to breath, but then i found out that alicia didnt tell me that and tanya was with alicia after i kicked her out and tanya control her. but bella i swear i'm gonna make it better i promise, i'm going to get you out off here, i understand if you can never forgive me or if you dont even believe me but please let me help you, please, i love you baby girl"