Elemental

31. My Loss

Jimin

All I could do was yell at her. Anything more and I'd trigger a war between us. That couldn't happen in a full classroom. Or anywhere for that matter. I was already pissed hearing she was off with Yanan somewhere. The whole damn school was buzzing about it when we got here. So knowing my ego would be inflated, I made a deal with Hye Jin to pretend we're dating to try and make them jealous. Of course she had no objections seeing as she hated Ariah as much as I liked her.

But seeing Ariah snap, choking her against the wall? That was some scary shit. It's like I could see her, but it wasn't exactly her. There was no mercy in those eyes, and I felt her urge to kill. It was insatiable. At least not until Hye Jin was dead.

I was grateful when the teacher butt in. She finally came to her senses so I took the time to run to my idiot 'girlfriend'. Her eyes were bloodshot red, a clear print of Ariahs hands stained purple on her neck.

I picked her up, ready to take her to the nurse when her sisters came running in. That's when I noticed the classroom.  Everyone was frozen like time stopped, except the clock was still ticking. Wonho and Ms. Kim chased after Ariah.

Rita ran in first, eyes panic stricken when she saw Hye Jins current state. "Oh my goddess. Ariah . . . no."

Anger boiled in me like bubbling lava ready to explode. "Telling me I can't control myself? Why didn't you keep a closer eye on her? Look what she's done!"

Fai pushed forward, a hand up to my face. "Whoa whoa whoa hold up now dumb fuck. Don't act like you weren't part of her Change aiight? Whose ego was it that fucked up your relationship in the first place? Huh? You let her down first, which means you triggered the rest of the dominos that fell after."

I couldn't believe she was throwing all that shit on me. "Excuse me? Don't try to throw all the blame on me-"

"Oh you want me to prove it?" She cut me off, no doubt ready to start listing. "Cool, okay. So you two started off as Thunder Buddies right? But we all know you fell for her before that. Then you got all egotistic when Lucas showed up right? Or was it when Wonho ran outta the closet with her? Either way, that ego of yours pushed her to the edge and ended the friendship. And do you know what that did? Push her closer to Wonho. And now, Wonho fucked up alongside Lucas who was also close to her. And do you know what that led to? Her coincidentally meeting Yanan. Now you're faking a relationship with an ex who still loves you and whom you still care about because you're jealous. But if you paid even a little attention to her, you'd know Ariah was still hurt from all the betrayals. Knowing she was still hurt, you wouldn't have let your idiot of a bitch open her mouth in the first place and she would've been safe. I bet you didn't even know how hurt and confused she was when you tried to get close to her only to defend that dumb bitch in your arms. If you had just trusted Ariah even the slightest bit or owned up to yuh damn feelings, none of this would've happened. So tell me again Jimin, is it still not your fault?"

Hearing all the shit that took place so far shocked me into silence.

Fuck. It was me. I let her down. I was the only one she was close to. I was all she had. And I pushed her away.

"Enough Fai. We don't need any more guilt trips around here." Lila gently pulled a heated Fai back. "Rita, go find Ariah and bring her back no matter what."

Now it was just the three of them and me still carrying the idiot in my arms. She was knocked out cold, loss of oxygen no doubt.

"Lay her on the teachers desk. I need to heal her, she's going into shock." Fai was already there, rolling up her sleeves.