I haven't been good lately.
But I haven't been bad either.
I'm in this weird, neutral stage
where it's like shit is happening
But I honestly don't care
So I'm not effected by it too much.
It's like I just don't know how to feel.
And it's really weird
Cuz I've never experienced something like this.
And it might be confusing to understand,
Cuz even I don't understand it.
It's like I'm just running on auto pilots almost.
Idk what to do
Or how to fix it.
Anyways I feel like I've been annoying everyone lately so that's fun.
I haven't been on my phone that much cuz I don't want my friends to get tired of me so I haven't been talking to all of them as often.
It's probably better that way too cuz I don't wanna lose them or have them wind up hating me.
I'm having a barbecue tonight at my house.
And we have family coming over that I've never met before.
But my parents hate them and it was actually my brother who invited them over without my moms permission.
So tonight's probs gonna be filled with lots of yelling and problems.
I'm most likely just gonna hide in my room and work on my summer homework or play video games.
Oh well, things are just so boring and uneventful lately.
I hope it changes soon
-Lily Anna🥀
