It's weird.
I've been thinking about how different my life has become,
In just one year.
This time last year I was on crutches with the worst injury I ever had.
This time last year I was homeschooled.
This time last year I had a whole different friend group and people that I trusted.
This time last year I was I wasn't grateful for all I had in life.
I've learned that love is patient, love is kind. You can't force it and you sure as hell cant just go out looking for it. It comes to you.
I've learned that people will come and go, whether it's just you slowly stop talking and it's a clean break...or it ends in a shit ton of pain.
I've learned that it's okay if people come and go. Cuz In the end all I have is myself and god. And that's all I will truly ever need. If someone ain't for me than I don't need them. And I sure as hell won't be for them.
I've learned to love myself more. I take care of myself better and know my limits. I know when to trust my gut and when to take a risk. I know more about who I am now and I'm happy that I am finally starting to accept it.
I've learned that I let stress get to me. I didn't realize it before but I've noticed that when I'm most stressed whether it's due to school or home life, that's when I revert back to kind of destructive behavior.
I've learned how to control myself when I'm under a good amount of stress. I've reverted back to drawing to help get it out of my system.
I've reconnected with God. I now go to a youth group every Wednesday and am a student leader there. My friend Anixza goes and it's really fun to do it with her. It also helps having her their cuz I'm on the worship team and knowing I have at least someone out there supporting me means a lot. But I've learned to trust in him more. I've started praying more often and letting him take control of my life.
I've learned to finally be happy. I mean sure, I still have my hard times but I'm no where near as bad as I was a year ago, or even 6 months ago. Things are looking up for me an I love it.
So much has changed in just One year.
I can't wait to see what life has in store for me.
