The past few days have been a little weird.
I'm not in the best place mentally right now.
And only a select few know of this.
I'm tired of complaining 24/7
I'm tired of feeling so broken down and weak.
People are betraying me left and right,
And so I'm shutting down.
I'm not gonna tell anyone shit anymore.
I don't plan on letting anyone know everything about me anymore.
I'm too trusting.
I always look for good in people know matter how many times they can screw me over
And I need to stop doing that.
Schools coming up in a few days.
And I'm honestly excited to be back.
I can finally be with my friends again.
And I didn't get any classes with the people I hate,
Which honestly is a relief because I would've died if I had gotten classes with them.
I also didn't get any classes with my best friends, except for TJ.
I have Biology with him so that makes me happy.
But I didn't get any with Halle or Kimyle,
Which makes me wanna cry because I was really hoping I'd have at least lunch with them.
We don't even have that.
Oh well.
Gymnastics is going pretty good.
We're on the fall schedule now and we're rushing to get our skills before the season starts in about 4 months.
I know that seems far away but in the gymnastics world,
that's barely enough time to get prepared.
I keep dying on beam.
Like legit, I've missed my hands when doing backhand springs on the beam one too many times.
Or like I hurt my ankle the other day by doing a round off tuck dismount but I landed on the beam with my foot sideways and took off like that.
And my bars is lacking a bit.
My coach is yelling at me almost everyday saying I should have the skills by now and that I'm not trying.
When he doesn't realize I'm pushing my self to the max day in and day out,
Just cuz I want this farewell season to be my best one yet.
I just gotta prove him wrong I guess.
Anyways yeah, life's been like good but weird lately.
Like I said im not well mentally.
And I'm not gonna go into it.
Cuz frankly, you all reading couldn't care less.
I know it's true.
So i just won't talk about it no more.
I'm done trusting people with my problems.
You can't trust no one in this world.
-Lily Anna🥀
