It's been a while.
Not much has changed.
Kinda.
Physically I'm doing shitty.
I've had a nasty cold for over a week.
I tore my rotator cuff in the front of my shoulder.
I'm having other health issues that I'd rather not talk about...
Mentally I'm doing alright i guess.
I've had a couple of mental breakdowns lately,
But my friend Landon has really helped.
He always knows how to calm me down.
Same with my friend Josh.
He makes me feel not so alone.
I'm constantly stressed cuz of school.
I'm pretty sure I'm gonna fail every class but it's whatever.
I got asked to homecoming today.
My friend got me a Dutch bros and then wrote "hoco?" on it.
I said yes.
Just as friends tho.
I hadn't even planned on going with him.
But I mean I got rejected by everyone i considered going with so that's cool I guess.
I miss having a boyfriend tbh.
I miss being someone's number one,
And being able to fall asleep with them on my mind.
And be able to just be swarmed by the feeling of love and contentment.
But at the same time.
Being single is what's best for me right now.
It's not that bad I guess.
I mean I do get to keep my options open.
But at this point I'm not looking for anything.
I'm just focusing on myself, friends and school.
Those are what matters most to me rn.
Life is a little shitty.
But it's good for the most part.
I'm at peace.
-Lily Anna🥀
