(A/N:) Human AU ooooh. Some good ol' Logan angst, but the endings pretty free out that so it's alright. Enjoy.
Third Person P.O.V:
The lights were dimmed low as Logan paced well-worn circles into the carpeting, the mechanisms inside his mind seeming to be working overtime tonight. It was well past midnight now, far later than Logan hardly ever stayed up. He always insisted on keeping as healthy of a sleep schedule as he could manage, trying to get an optimal amount of rest. Being a high school teacher and having to wake up at an insufferably early time in the morning was another incentive to go to bed early rather than late so that he wasn't much resembling a zombie in front of his students. But tonight, was different, and though he wanted to, sleep didn't seem like it was in the cards for Logan. His mind was far too swelled with thoughts, thick and full like a storm cloud before a rainy day.
He had tried to get himself into a calm mindset, to remain logical and as reasonable as he would be any other time – but he just couldn't bring himself to do it. For one of the first times in his life, he was the victim of his emotions, allowing his feelings to get the better of him without his consent.
Logan had never been like this, so caught up in contemplation to the point where sleep wasn't even a consideration any longer. About an hour or so before he had tried to lay in bed and shut the lights out, but with no success. He felt ... cold ... and lonely, constantly glancing at the empty spot beside him, irrationally and desperately wishing for it to be filled. He didn't like the way he was feeling now, not in the least bit. It wasn't like him, Logan was hardly feeling like himself at all. Perhaps that was because he was feeling all too much.
Before he met Roman, issues like this had never occurred. He hadn't ever felt the need to be reliant on another person. He had, for many years of his life, prided himself in his independence and lack of a need to be attached to someone romantically. He didn't see it in his future, not at all, really. He had his work, which he derived great pleasure from. Truly he adored educating the youth, seeing the glint in a child's eyes when they came to find a love of learning. Though he didn't believe in anything of the sort, Logan almost felt as though he could describe it as magical. He had his friends, and though he was not a part of a massive circle, the few that he had were close and good, ones who had been present in his life since mid-high school. His companions, his work, and his "slight" soft spot for Crofter's Jam, though that was deemed unimportant, had been the things that filled his life with meaning and joy. For so long it had seemed like that was all that he could ever possibly need ... that was until he met Roman, and his life, for a lack of a better term, turned upside down.
He'd met the theatric man through Virgil and Patton, apparently, a childhood friend of the two who had moved away when they were children but was someone who they had both remained in steady contact with. When he decided to move back to their area of Florida he was immediately reinitiated into their friend group without a moments' hesitation, something that at first, alarmed Logan.
Of course, he wouldn't have complained about it to his friends. He really did care about them deeply and he couldn't bear to imagine hurting their feelings by expressing that he was wary of the idea of a stranger to him entering their tight-knit circle. He was an adult for Christ's sake, and he knew he needed to drop this childish fear that swelled in his stomach, because for whatever reason, Roman had initially made him feel quite uneasy.
At the time, he couldn't be sure what it was. He knew that Roman and his dynamics were very different, clashing at times. Roman was bold and brash, someone who strived for creativity and flourished in the theatre. These were not things that Logan necessary understood, and their clashing mindsets could spark interesting debate between them to say the very least. Overall, though, it did not take long for Logan to come to understand that there were commonalities between them and things that they could connect on. He saw a possibility of a friendship forming between them, and Virgil and Patton seemed to have the same idea. They couldn't always keep as close an eye on their friend as they may have liked to, but the couple saw a connection forming between Roman and Logan even before they themselves had.
