i found you.

maybe

december 12th, 2017 10:04 am

i just got a text from daniel. he said he'd be here at 10:30. i'm still thinking about last night. when i sent him a paragraph, all he said was that he would come over. last year he made a whole slideshow and a wrote me a freaking novel. i don't know whats going on with him. i just hope everything gets cleared up today.

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10:27 am

i finished curling the last strand of my hair. i walked over to my closet trying to figure out what to wear. my eyes shifted directly to the hoodie i took from him on our first date. he took me to the city carnival. it was my freshman year of high school. it was so cold, and silly me wore a tanktop. he saw me shiver and took off his hoodie and gave it to me. i remember the feeling i got when i put it on. it was warm, and it smelt just like him. i felt so safe. it's big and grey, and has the word "maybe" written in red. i took it off the hanger and smelt it. it didn't smell like him anymore, but i put it on anyway. i matched it with some jeans. i stared at the mirror looking at myself, and i started to cry. "what if today goes wrong?" i kept asking myself. i'm terrified.

*KNOCK ON DOOR*

my heart fell to my chest. he's here.
i walk to the door and open it slowly. i saw him. its been weeks, and i finally saw him. i couldn't help it, i hugged him. i just held him. he felt like home.

"happy 2 years." i said.
"can i come in?" he asked while un-hugging me.
i scooted over to let him by. he sat on the couch and i sat next to him. he looked at me in a way i've never seen before. he looked at me like i was a stranger. he was silent for about 3 minutes, then he started to cry. tears crawling down his face. i didn't know what to do, so i just hugged him again. then he said something. something i don't think i could ever forget.