God's Gift

"Sin" Before Marriage

I was blazing with excitement, shame and shock all at once. I thought, 'what just happened? Did he kiss me?' But what I said was something totally different.

" I- I'm so sorry!! I didn't mean to.. It was my fault." I was really embarrassed. Since it was my first kiss. Yes. 23 years old and I'm having my first kiss. It's depressing.

"Hey, it's fine! It was me actually. I have no idea what came over me. I'm the one who should apologize." Bashar said.

We were walking by the mountains, holding hands and admiring the sunset. I wished I would die right there with him.

"I feel like a sinner. I mean, isn't it 'wrong' to kiss someone before you are married? At least that's what all Desi (people of the Indian sub Continent) parents say. I mean unless you marry the person that you kiss then it's fine." I said.

" What? No. You are not a sinner. It wasn't your fault. It was mine. Don't blame it on yourself. Besides, if you marry the person you kissed then it's not so bad..." he said.

Then I realized something: was he proposing to me? no.. we just met. That's crazy..

"Did you just propose to me?" my crazy horny self asked.

" Ummm.... sorta? I mean I don't know you yet so we could start out by going on a date..." he confessed

I was shocked. He asked me out. Like what the fuck?!?!?! What should I do? I'll say yes. Date him. Get to know him and then tell my parents? No. Even if my parents don't find out, my sister will use her ways and get me in trouble. So I will tell Bashar I will think about it. Tell my parents. Get their approval. Date for a few months; even when we go to India. Get married!! BOOM!! I got it all planned out.

"So Bashar, I really do like you, but I wanna tell my parents before we officially start dating. I don't want them to be surprised. I hope you under--"

" Oh yea, of course. I know what you are going through.. sorry did I interrupt you? being raised in a typical Desi family. Take your time ok? I will not rush you." replied Bashar.

" haha.. No you are ok. And thanks so much for understanding Bashar. It really means alot to me." I replied. "No problem" he said back.

Then I asked him the most weirdest thing. Are you a first kisser. His answer was yes. And he said he was also a virgin. Which I didn't expect.

We hiked the mountains and finally scouted the area like we were supposed to and made a list as to what activities we should have the kids do tomorrow. Then we got back to our cabins after dinner. Then before parting, he kissed me again. A long, soft lingering kiss. With his hands on my hips and mine in his hair. We were like that for at least 2 minutes. After breaking the kiss, he said...

" For a first timer, you're pretty good." And he winked at me before turning to his cabin.

I felt robbed and that feeling would still be there for years to come.

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