billie eilish imagines (girl x girl)

starry night ♡

"새벽이 찾아오면
혼자 남겨질 때면"
(when the dawn comes,
when i'm all alone.)
☆彡

You were used to standing alone, on the balcony. The night sky was dark, and the stars were scattered everywhere.

어둠의 그림자 깊은 이 밤에 남겨진
(like a shadow in the dark, getting
lost in this night.)

Guy after guy, you tried to find love within but you were somehow unable to. Every man that came along in your life, you couldn't click with. Some managed to have a connection with you, but it lasted for no more than a couple weeks.

You would always break hearts of men, and so many times you tried to fix things, and doubtlessly apologize, but it never did work for you.

내일은 좀 다른 날이 되려나
(will it be different tomorrow?)

It never changed, your feelings could never change. 'I don't want to face it. They'll hate me.' You would always think to yourself, knowing if you turned to what you wanted, you would be casted out.

You went to the bar that night, trying to relieve some stress and maybe have a drink to fix the issues and pain you felt. You ordered a glass of champagne, and sat down on the barstool.

"Can I buy you a drink?" You heard a man ask, as you looked over.

You saw a tall brunette man, and he was good looking, but you knew this wasn't what you wanted. You previously had a couple drinks, so you were borderline drunk.

"Yeah, what's your name?" You ask.

"Jay, you?" He says.

"Y/N." You smile.

"Beautiful name, Y/N. May I say, you are quite beautiful yourself." He smiles.

"Thank you." You say, pushing your body on his.

"I'm guessing you wanna head back to mine?" He laughs.

"Mm." You drunkenly slur.

"Lets go." He says, taking your hand and grabbing a cab back to his.

달라진 거 없는 똑같은 일상이 반복돼
(a day like every other repeats,
over and over again.)

"You're so hot." He whispers as he pushes you down on his soft bed.

He kissed your neck, and you moaned, though you didn't really meant it. The night was depressing, to be honest. You enjoyed the rush of this, but not the man himself. The next morning, you woke up with coldness filling your heart again.

"Where are you going?" Jay asks.

"I'm leaving." You say, emotionlessly.

"What? Why, I thought we had something?" He asks, sadly.

"We had sex, I didn't enjoy it." You snap.

"What the fuck is your problem?" He asks, angrily.

"You." You say while opening the door, and leaving.