5 Seconds of Summer Preferences and Imagines (some smut)

Timezones (Ashton Sad Imagine)

Ashton POV ~

Another city, another night away from the only person who means anything to me anymore. The only person who knows and understands every single part of me and doesn't judge me. It breaks my heart more and more every night that I don't have her in my arms. I turn to drinking, ignoring phone calls that I know she spends hours planning just to work around the "Timezones".  What am I supposed to say, that I miss her? it just sounds like a broken record after the first few times.

I ignore her because it's easier to lose her than to deal with the pain of only hearing her mesmerizing voice on the phone, a voice smooth as silk that makes me crumble. She never fails to call and I never fail to ignore it. I'm waiting for the day they just stop but they never do. You see when I say she understands every SINGLE part of me I mean it, she really does. She knows why I ignore her calls, shes left many voice messages telling me she understands. She's told me she feels the same but she won't let it stop her from calling me, nothing can, not even "Timezones". 

I know she calls and talks to Calum to see how I'm doing. I've heard them on the phone talking about me. The boys beg me to call her but I can't, they just don't understand. I want her to leave me, this life I live will never work for her. One day she will get tired of the "Timezones", one day she will move on and find someone better, one day I will just be a distant and painful memory to her; I'm ok with that. I love her too much to just end it, to cut my tie to her. They say if you love something let it go and if it comes back then it's yours to keep, if it never does then it wasn't. 

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