A Bond That Can't Be Broken

The Cycle Continues

It's pitch black around me and I struggle to recall what happened but when I do, I feel utterly useless and destroyed. Why can't I have a normal life? I know it's a dumb question to ask when at the moment I'm in a lot of trouble. Anyways I slowly open my eyes to reveal I'm seriously in the dark. Literally in the dark, mentally in the dark and physically in the dark. It's such a complicated thing. I hear a loud crash and then screams but it's all in my imagination. The house fell and my family went down with it. I'd rather live in the house alone then kill others along with myself. I realize I'm confined to a wooden chair that's causing major discomfort.

Abruptly the light is switched on and I flinch slightly.I hate when someone does that with the light it's like someone forcing you to look at the sun until you go blind after you've been in the dark for most of your life.  So I glare at the person responsible and my heart sinks. I wish I was home and yes, my real home. "Can you answer one question for me?" I ask curiously. He nods and says, "But haven't you heard curiosity killed the cat." I know he was serious when he says that but I am not fazed by what he says anymore. His words have their dire consequences on my mental wellbeing but as my coping mechanism, my mind shuts out all the hate, thoughts and feelings I have towards this man that changed my life drastically.

"What do you have against me?"I ask seriously as I look at his disturbingly ugly face. "Nothing, I told you I saved you that day and I think you owe me for my generosity,"he says and I snort at how he thinks I'm an idiot. "I know the truth, stop lying! Will you?" I say, angry at him for destroying my life. He looks at me feigning confusion as his eyes sparkle from happiness due to my revelation. "What? You lied to me that my family died. You hurt me for fun and then you keep chasing me and for what?"I say much too curiously as I stare him in eye. I'm at quite a disadvantage since I'm tied to a chair but, lately, he has the utmost patience for my attitude which is strange. I just want answers. He's never giving me answers and it's all stored in that tiny brain of his.

He just stares at me as if I'm an idiot that's just lost all my brain capacity. I stare him down too as if saying what. "Well are you ready for some fun,"he says completely ignoring my curiosity. What was he hiding and why didn't he want me to know? What is so important that he has to keep me in the dark?

I just look at him with anger, hoping that for once in my life it didn't mean having to kill someone and having to see the consequences afterwards because if I have to do that then I would rather commit suicide. "You're going to go to your oh so precious school and you're going to bomb it,"he says smugly, looking at me for a response and knowing he's going to get one, he goes silent. "Absolutely not, there's no way I'm going to kill other people and live to see the devastation,"I say seriously and with anger at the same time. "Oh, wasn't I clear. I meant you'll be bombing your school but as a suicide bomber so you will die along with them and your dreams will come true because I won't be chasing you any longer,"he says with pure happiness as finally doing something right. He is happy because he's rid of me and finally fulfilling his dream. Nothing makes sense but I know it's finally the end of my dreadful life that never even began.

I stare at him in utter disbelief but then again what was I expecting. I just realized, the saying, "Be-careful what you wish for," came true in my life. Wow my life sucks. Tell me who in their lifetime actually has this happen to them? I just want to die, oh wait that came true too. Ugh. Imagine if everything you ever wished for came true. I know if that is the case then I wouldn't be in this situation to begin with.

After a couple minutes, I am all prepped and ready to go or to be more specific to die. I look at myself in the mirror. The last time I'll ever see my face, Hannah, the girl who just didn't have the right to live. A tear threatens to fall as I look at myself and remember the family I left behind. Till this day they don't know I was alive for a year and more but now I'll be dead before I can even show them my face or tell them my stories.