F.A.M.I.L.I.A

California Love

1 week later.....

~Jaya~

We just landed in Cali, I was supposed to come by myself, but after what Ti told me I kind of blew up and they told me I couldn't come by myself. No that's a lie Lisa told me if I left Atlanta without them she'd bust a cap in my ass and then take me to hospital afterwards. So you see I really didn't have a choice in them coming with me or not. All I knew was that I had to get my hands-on Donovan for what he did to my wife. It wasn't that he slept with her, because come on no one is 100% pure, but to know that this nigga was pressuring her to do shit, didn't sit right with me. Before I could make any moves, I had to talk to Jesse about it. I mean I am coming to Cali to basically kill his brother, its only respectful that I let him know before he hears about it in the street. He told me I could handle it how I see fit, the only thing he told me was that I did it clean and didn't leave any evidence of it.

We going to the hotel first or we going straight to the spot Li said as we settled into the town car. There's no hotel I got us a house by the beach, it's too risky to be going in and out of a hotel I said looking out the window. Baby if you don't wanna do this we don't have...Ti it has to be done. But you don't have to do it, I mean what the fuck is Jesse doing its his brother why isn't he handling it? He's not gonna handle it. Why not though, that's his brother not yours and he's after him as well. I prefer to handle it you were my responsibility and I don't need him to a damn thing for me.

Jayasri! Yes I said looking at Li. Don't come at her like that she's trying okay and truth be told she didn't want to tell either of us what happen, but I forced her to tell me. Apologize! I stared at her for a minute and she rolled her neck, Fine I am sorry Ti I shouldn't have come at you like that. It's cool I just don't know why you always handling shit, I mean this ain't your fight it's his, yet you constantly in the line of fire. I know it's been like that for years and I feel like I am losing it and I don't know how to handle it. Losing what Jaya! It all of it, I can't protect yall the way need to, shit keeps happening, and he don't have my back like he said he would. Baby this shit isn't just happening to you it's happening to us to and it isn't your sole responsibility to protect us. But it is, that's my role in this. We don't have roles in this Jaya, our only responsibility is to love one another. Jaya you ain't a nigga and we aren't your bitches okay, we protect love each other that's how it is. And that's how it'll always be she said smirking at me. I just want to do right by yall. And you are baby, we know you want to protect us, hell we want to protect you too. All of this is new to us. Baby, we just think that you shouldn't have to handle all of this shit yourself Jaya. You and Asia are carrying this nigga and he's doing nothing. He's handling stuff just not the stuff we see daily. Like what? It's bigger than what even I know he handles the international shit. So Drugs he handles the drugs, Li said. Yeah he goes to South America, Columbia to be precise. Before you say anything, I wasn't hiding it from yall, I mean yall know we got stuff on the streets, but I don't touch the physical product and I haven't in a long time. Thank you for being honest with us Ti said entwining our fingers together.

Baby after this maybe we should get you into some therapy Li said. Therapy, I am not crazy Lisa! I am not saying you're crazy I am just saying maybe it will help and it might help all of us to go to some separately and then do some marriage counseling to help us communicate better with each other. What you think about that Strawberry? I think she's right I think that we have a lot of things about ourselves that we've hidden from each other and are slowly finding them out as we go along isn't working for us. Funny thing is I am the one with all the secrets I said chuckling, but they didn't. They were looking at me seriously. Jaya I would never say this unless I truly thought you couldn't handle it, but it needs to be said and I want you to answer me truthfully. Okay I said getting a little nervous of what she was gonna say to me. Sometimes I am afraid of what secrets you are still holding back from us. I mean sometimes you have this anger and furry in you and other times you are so fragile I am afraid that we are gonna have to...I mean we are gonna have to be extra careful with you. Jaya do you ever feel suicidal?