Falling for My Best friend Zaya

01/ Her

He chose Her Riley Matthews They said I was turning Into Riley They didn't know How I feel I Always step back for Her Because did I lose Her I don't know what I would do with Myself They told Me I was turning Into Her that I was only feeling what Riley was feeling

But to be completely Honest We weren't actually In a Love triangle I was the third wheel I know He would chose Her He just didn't want to Hurt Me But I was going to be Hurt either way If He chose Me I would lose Riley and I Never ever want to lose Her It would Kill Me

But when He chose Her I felt like I Broke like even If you tried to fix Me you would be out Of Luck Because I couldn't be fixed

Well Today Is the first day back from the ski Lodge and I Have to see Riley and Lucas So I get Out Of My Bed and Look for a long sleeved shirt to Hide all My self Harm Marks On My Arms I go down to the kitchen to get My Bag I Haven't been eating since the ski Lodge Because I Need to be skinny I'm too fat I Mean No Boys wants a far cow Like Me

So I Head to school Yes I'm still talking to Riley It's Just Lucas Is taking Her and I Can't face the Both Of them at this Moment

So I go Inside Abigail Adams High school and go Over to My Locker But when I got there I saw a couple making out I couldn't see their faces until They pulled away to breath and all I saw was Lucas and Riley

I Dropped My Bag on the Ground and ran I ran till I ran Into someone falling Into their Chest I just started saying sorry till I saw their face and I Just started crying and He pulled Me Into a sweet Hug

Hey Maya It's OK what's Wrong I didn't know What to say So I Just told Him the truth I'm sorry Zay I was walking to My Locker and saw Riley and Lucas Making Out Literally right On top Of My Locker Zay swooped Me Into a Nice big Hug and said Everything Going to be OK

It actually felt Nice to Hug Zay It felt warm fuzzy and safe but Just like every good thing In My Life It Had to come to an end

Riley came walking Over and said Hey Guys Oh Wait am I ruining something I In burried  My head out of his chest and said No nothing was going on she than looked at Me with those Judge Mental eyes and walked Off

I Looked up at Zay and He Looked down at Me We stayed there for a while until Farkle came towards and said Hey Guys I looked away from Zay and started blushing i said Hi Farkle than looked down at Me and Zay hand and gave me the Oh so you like Him Now look so I gave Him the shut Up Look so He said Ready to go and Me and Zay shook Our Heads and We walked to Class