ETERNITY and other poems

The Battle.

Bruised and Shattered;

All my forgotten dreams.

This one mistake

Has made me lose everything.

If I am to fall apart this way,

I hope it's physically my whole being,

For I'd rather that than be nothing but a shell broken in between.

I've fought for so long,

But the battle was lost.

There's still the war,

But is fighting it worth the cost?

Don't mourn and care for me,

I'm not worth the wait.

Please leave before I begin to trust you like I did the others and it's too late.

I'll hide myself away.

I'll find a secluded, dark place.

Somewhere my thoughts can haunt me all they want,

And I can give in without having to put on a feigned grin.

Don't worry though, I won't be alone.

My fears will make sure to be scratching through my bones.

As well as my flaws beginning to show in the daylight.

Plus my demons clawing on my skin to keep me up at night.

So you see, I'm anything but by myself,

And it's still not right.

Not even with just me can I be alright.

So maybe if I disappear, I can finally be free?

It sounds like a plan,

But I'm a coward,

And going through with it is not easy for wimps like me.

So I'll continue with this game,

Until the screen says over,

And I've either died or I'm tame.

I'd be fine with either now,

Because nothing is the same

As the times when I'd smile as I drew my sword

To fight in the battle and the victory that I believed would be mine to claim.