Ambrosine
3:45am
" Make sure you call me when you land! Stay safe. Don't go out with strangers or to bars alone. Bring my back some clothes for the body I use to have and have fun. I love you girl!"
" I will! Love you too!" She laughed rolling out her suitcase.
Her tears wasn't as silent as she thought so I hung the phone up on Saint for a while and sat talking to her part of the night. She's been hurting and bottling it up for a long time and I understand why she's acting out but Wayno is a good guy and doesn't deserve that hurt. I'm no one to judge though, we are all imperfect and learning from it. I got a better understanding of why she was hurting and acting out and I suggested that each place she travels to she finds a therapist that understands english to help her along the way whether it be for a day or a week. Feeling lost is one of the worst feelings ever. Maybe the wisdom she needs will come from another country.
Depression is real and causes people to act out and say things they don't necessarily mean. But if she meant any of those things, I'll forgive her and take it as criticism to work on myself but I also know that people will always talk and sometimes you can't always give a listening ear. Knowing Chasity, she probably didn't mean it as bitchy as it came out. She admitted to the things she's said but my therapist has taught me that holding on to anger will only make you consume it and become angry as well. I can't be angry carrying my baby boy or girl.
I truly hope our conversation will resonate with her over the time she's away. Green is a color that does not fit her at all.
The door bell rang. I just knew she was forgetting her State ID or something rushing. Hell, I'd rush too if I had the whole world to explore. There isn't much happening in Harlem for her to miss anyways.
" Girl you said you had ever—" My eyes widened and my phone dropped to the floor. I'm pretty sure it cracked.
My eyes were wide. I immediately jumped on him. He held on to me tight laughing a bit.
" Give me a kiss baby I've missed you." He smiled.
" You're here? How?! We just were on FaceTime!"
I squealed a bit as he held me. My emotions were running all over the place because I found myself hysterically crying and slightly shaking.
" You thought I was gonna leave you in this big house alone?"
" Stop crying gorgeous." He laughed a bit at me again. This felt surreal.
" It isn't two weeks yet?"
" Chasity called me from your phone when you was sleeping and we decided to make something happen. She begged me."
" How'd you get here so fast?!"
" Private Jet."
" Wow. I'm so happy you're home! I-I don't know what to say."
I sunk my face into his shirt taking in his smell. I felt like I was on cloud nine.
" Get down mama let me see your belly."
He closed the door behind himself and kneeled down.
" Hey little one, you finally get to hear dada's voice in person." He cheesed hard.
" If we have another girl I'm going to go crazy Ambrosine." He shook his head with the serious face.
" You'll be alright. How has everything been with you? Can you tell me why you left?" It probably was too soon to ask these questions and I should be savoring the moment. Curiosity did kill the cat.
