make sure u play the song!!!!!!!!!!!!
PREVIOUSLY
Joe:"You know what i dont care. i guess everyone is fucking blind to see that i do have feelings, expecially for you"
and with that i got up and walked off. i went home and went to my room then turned my phone off so i stop getting the messages skye and jason keep sending me. i went over and locked my balcony doors and my windows and closed my blinds so the light wont shine through and locked my bedroom door so everyone will leave me alone. i turned on my speaker and blasted my music.
i was just laying down thinking about how much ive fucked up in life and how i ruined everyone elses so i decided i needed to get away so i was.
JOE'S P.O.V
i went and grabbed my backpack from my closet and started to pack all of my clothes and everything. i went to my bathroom and made sure i packed the little baggie that has all of my stuff in it and put that in the backpack too. i was ready for this day. i went into my matress and grabbed the gun that i stole from my dad and put it away and finally left.
i had my gun in my jacket pocket while i was walking down the street this guy told me to meet him at. the house were all broken down and messed up, definitely different from my neighborhood, untill i stopped at a slightly better looking house and walked towards the door. i pulled out my phone and checked the time and i was on time. the door opened to a guy that looked like he was in his 16-17 and opened it wide enough for me to walk in. he shut the door and we did a little hand shake along with the other 3 guys that were there. i sat down and we talked about the deal we had. i pulled out the gun and put it on the table because they didnt trust me along with a bag of weed.
Dude:"So this is everything right?
Joe:"Yes. so can i get my stuff now or...?" he looked at me then grabbed the weed.
Dude:"Im sure you wouldnt want to leave without taking at least one hit" he said and looked up at me and smirked.
about 45 minuets later i took the gun and put it back in my pocket and said bye to the guys and left. i was walking home and a cop pulled up to me, so i pushed the gun further into my pocket to try and hide it better. he got out and walked over to me
Cop:"Hey kid ummm what are you doing?" i just stood there trying to say something but the only thing that came out was
Joe:"Get the fuck away from me bitch!!!" he just walked closer and looked at me dead in the eyes. he reached over and said something into his walkie talkie and went to grab my arm
Joe:"I said get the fuck away from me im trynna get raped tf" (this just remined me of "i am my own mommy tf") he looked at me in shock and got really mad. well i just pissed him off. i sprinted to try and make it somewhere safe in time but he caught up to me and tackled me on the ground. he handcuffed me and put me inside of the car and took me home.
we made it there and then he took me up to the door and then knocked. my mom answered it and then she looked...upset. she NEVER shows her feelings cuz she is always happy.
the cop left and now its just my dad and my mom downstairs yelling at me. and that was NOT the first time ive been thrown into a cop car, i even was put into jail cuz of my fucking friends, so now look at where im at...a fucked up asshole. my dad honestly got me so much that night that i went up to my room and locked my door and went to my bathroom. i pulled out the gun and did everything i needed to do and put it to my head i was crying and just re-thought everything and then i pulled the trigger.
i woke up with tears in my eyes and sweat all over my face and body. it was all just a dream, but it felt so real.
