JOE'S P.O.V
I got everything. the messages, the calls, everyone knocking on my doors. well not everyone only jason and i think skye did too. my mom doesnt mess with me when im like this and my dad...he doesnt even talk to me because im a "disgrace to the family" so it definitely wasnt one of them.
its like i want to feel bad for turning out this way and always pushing everyone way, but how am i supposed to feel bad if i cant even feel anything in general? (oh. same.)
i mean,,,you cant break someone who is already broken. and you cant make someone sad when they are already sad. i looked through my curtain and seen skye. she was crying and i just watched. i couldnt ask her if she was ok or comfort her like i normally would because she thinks i hate her. she threw all of her things on the floor and fell still crying. if i had a heart like any normal person does, i would be upset and sad but i dont. its like i dont even have a heart, its all just cold, black, and empty anyways. the only thing i could feel at that moment was how hurt i used to be. i did the exact same thing that she was and is still doing right now when my suicide attempt failed. i was so upset that i was still in this world, like why cant i just be out of it? im not meant to stay. not for anything or anyone. everyone would call me the "weird emo kid" when in all reality i was as happy as it could really get for a kid at my time of age, but it all changed. i would get in fights, skip my classes, talk back to the teachers, everywhere i went i had to have my probation officer with me. my dad tried to send me away when that all started. he said, and i quote "we dont want you in our house if all you are gonna do is bring your negative ass into it." at the time i didnt really understand what he meant by that like take myself out of this world or just leave the house? so i just went with the first one. jason always tried to get me to stop what i was doing cuz he was scared. he didnt want to watch his twin brother either die or get sent away infront of him and be gone forever. i found some of my moms pills in the kitchen and took them when no one was in there. i tried to overdose. so i can leave, be gone forever away from the people that dont need/want me anymore. the only person i didnt want to leave was jason. he was the only one that actually cared about me. he would be the one to hug me and tell me everything was gonna be okay. he was the one who was always there for me when ever i needed someone to talk to. he was the on who would always give me advise on how to stop getting into trouble. but he was also was the one to find me laying on the bathroom floor basically dead. ever since that day he has always watched over me more than he did before. he has made sure that mom and dad watch what they say around me. and he has always made sure that no one at school would say anymore shit to me about that. he doesnt want anyone to bring back that memory because he thinks i might do it again. but watching skye be so heartbroken and upset brings back those memories from 2 years ago. it makes me want to go treat her how jason used to treat me, but i cant.
i walked outside and seen her with bridie. she was still crying while bridie was hugging her trying to make her feel better when all she needed was me to be the one that was doing that. skye, she makes me feel different. she makes me feel happy and alive. its like i can be me around her and not the person that i try to be. she makes me feel things...
SKYE'S P.O.V
we got to bridies house and all i can think about was seeing joe. he watched me in my room when i was going crazy, he watched me cry while bridie was hugging me. its like he wants me to feel this way.
we just got done watching the breakfast club(my favvv movie btw!!!) and any disney movie that was on netfix. i honestly felt so much better than i did earlier and i was happy. for now. i ran around her house singing just keep swimming in the whale voice.
Bridie:"Skye. SHuT UUpPppP!!!" i thew i pillow and then she chased me around. i was so cought up in running that i didnt notice she was infront of me untill i got hit on the side of my face. she hit me so hard my whole body turned sideways and i face planted into the floor.(my sister did the samething but she triped and landed in a bush. lol) she ran out the front door before i could get up. i went out there and grabbed the hose. i turned it on and folded it so nothing can come out.
Skye:"Come out come out wherever you are. BITCH!" i went walking around more untill i heard a noise. i went to go spray whatever it was but nothing came out. i thought maybe it got tangled up somewhere so its not going through correctly. i straightened it out but i still got nothing. if you drove past her house right now and you seen me you would think im stupid. i lifted it up a bit i put my eye near it so i can see if something was in it. usually i wouldnt do this cuz like what if a snake pops out and eats my eyeballs?!? i would cry- wait i cant cry if i dont have eyeballs!! i shook my head and looked back down again. i heard a little noise then water came shooting out and sprayed me in the eyes.
Skye:"AHHHHH!!! I CANT SEE. I THINK IM BLIND. I CANT SEE THE SUN. AAAaaHHhhH OR... DID THE SNAKE EAT THEM DUHHN DUHHN DUHHHHHNNNNNN. I CANT CRY ANYMOREEEE" i yelled as i started crying.
Bridie:"Oh shut up. you are not blind and no. snakes did not eat your eyeballs nor where they going to. you should really know how to keep your thoughts inside your brain without saying them out loud. ANDDDDD IF YOU DIDNT HAVE EYEBALLS YOU WOUDNT BE CRYING RIGHT NOW YOU WOULD BE BLEEDING NOW GET UP AND PUT YOUR BIG GIRL PANTS ON!!!" she walked over and wiped my eyes. wow is this what its like to get your eyeballs back from the snakes and not be blind anymore??? this is so fascinating.
Skye:"And who are you? BiLL nYe" i said with a sassy tone and walked away and then falling. she shook her head and walked past me leaving me all alone to dieee. duhhn duhhhn duuuuuhhhhhhnnnnnn...
