Stay Calm // Finn wolfhard book 1

XXIX

YOUR POV

*Flight number 7559 New York to Toronto is boarding now please make your way to gate 12* 

I lifted my hand to wipe the tears running down my red cheeks and stood up next to Sam who was clutching both our suitcases. 

Finn pulled me into a tight hug, my pounding head pressed against his neck before he lay a soft kiss on my forehead and Sam took my now free hand directing me to the gate as we walked further and further from the boy who was now just a blurred figure.

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"Mr. Y/L/N?!" Sam called as we stumbled through the front door dropping all of our luggage in the process 

"Dad?" my voice came out in a strained whisper due to my throat being so raw from crying for hours on end. 

He was sitting at the breakfast bar with a glass of scotch whiskey in his hands and his head was bowed to hide the fact that he was crying. I'd never seen my father cry before.

I approached him slowly and he tried to hide his face as I stepped closer but when I stood right next to him I went to place a hand on his arm but his sudden movement made me jump.

 My dad lifted his head, wiped his cheeks and smiled so fakely "hey sweetheart" his voice shook horrifically but I just wrapped my arms around his neck and let out a whimper causing more tears to coat my already soaked skin. 

He returned the gesture and his shoulders shook signalling he was also crying. 

We stayed like that for about 4 minutes before I pulled back and looked at my emotionally destroyed father, he looked so fragile instead of confident and happy like he usually was 

"I thought her sickness wasn't bad, you said if it was bad she would know because she is ... was a doctor" I said anger rising in my voice "I-I" he tried to speak but didn't know what to say

 "Were you even going to tell me or just wait another week until I got back?" "You were having so much fun for once and I didn't want to ruin it I'm sorry Y/N" he looked so guilty and my heart sank, 

I can't lash out at him he just lost his wife "dad I'm sorry  I-" But I didn't know what else to say, "I can't believe sh-she's gone" he whimpered combing his hands through his hair and I wrapped my arms around him again 

"oh what are we going to do" he rocked us back and forth as we just sat in each others embrace.

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I'd been in my room for hours just sitting on my bed staring out the window at the thick woods stretching right out to the horizon, not crying just staring. 

There was a soft knock on my door and I turned to see Sam standing in the doorway looking slightly sheepish "hey nugget" she spoke so softly "can I sit?" she asked and I nodded turning back to the window as I felt her sit next to me on the mattress

 "so your father and I have been talking and he thinks it's best if I... if I stop tutoring you" my head shot over to her but she avoiding eye contact obviously feeling unsure "and what do you think?" I almost snap quite taken aback by my tone I looked back to my clenched hands on my lap

 "I agree with him, I - um I have student loans to pay off and he can't afford to pay me to tutor you since he currently doesn't have any income due to his unemployment" she finished. 

I sat in silence for about a minute before replying "ok" "look Y/N i can still be your friend and I can still call around here every week or so if you would like that?" 

"is that all?" I said flatley "Y/N I-" "is that all?" "yes" "if you don't mind I would like to be alone please" "I'll see you later yeah?" I didn't answer her but instead continued to stare out the window

 "okay goodbye" Sam almost whispered sounding disappointed and I heard the door click shut before I let out a sigh sigh causing my shoulder to drop and the salty tears to return.  

A/N/// sorry I haven't uploaded in like a month but I have a good story line coming up and possibly a sequel so stay tuned for that :) I hope you enjoyed this chapter sorry there wasn't much Finn