The Bravesoul of a Savage

23. I Want to Love You

Trigga POV

I swear some females straight hoes. I really convinced this chick to get me nurse clothes but she even got me into Zey's room. I lied telling her she was my sister. I couldn't stop laughing inside. I know it was crazy to do this but it seemed like I was never going to get to talk to her alone.

"Trust me Nicole I got this okay. No one will find out. Thank you really." I said closing the door while she looked uneasy.

"Yo what the fuck!" Zey semi-yelled.

"What are you doing here and what the fuck are you wearing." She said trying not to laugh.

"What's funny?" I asked

"You look like the hoodest Doctor I've ever seen." She said laughing

It made me smile to see my baby smile the way she did. I walked over to her and sat next to her on her bed. She gave me a side eye and moved over giving me room.

"You supposed to ask to sit you know." She said adjusting herself.

"That's true but I'm special." I stated proudly.

"You may be special but I don't remember sadly." She spoke but I could hear a little hurt in her voice.

"You really don't remember at all? I know you lied on what you do remember." I just wanted to know.

"You must really like me if you can even tell when I lie." she laughed. "I remember my mom beating on me and getting a gunshot wound. I remember hitting a club with Zen but not everything fully from that night. Everything is a blur and I get headaches that give me pictures. But what good are pictures if I don't know everything. You went through all of this cosplaying to see me the least you could do is tell me. Tell me about us at least."

I nodded in agreement understanding how she felt. I loved her so I could at least respect her request. I grabbed her hand and kissed it. Looking her in her eyes seeing that she was a little embarrassed.

"Don't get me wrong I'm a thug but I'm a kind man at heart Zey. And I want you to smile around me. I'll tell you about us." I said lifting her head. "But first you have to allow me to kiss you. It's been way too long sand I missed my baby's lips."  I simply suggested. It was wrong to do it like that so something told me she'd say no but what's wrong with a lil hope. Surprisingly she nodded yes. I looked at her shocked and licked my bottom lip nodding my head.

Zey POV

This nigga Phae thought he was slick asking for a kiss like that. But I wanted to know what his lips felt like too. So yeah I said yes. He was holding my head by my chin. Honestly when he touched me it was like I was electrocuted but I ignored it. I started mentally preparing myself for this kiss because I was scared I wouldn't like it or who knows what.

But when his lips met mine easing in slowly. It was like my world finally had color. It was like I could finally breathe. His lips were so soft I was lost in them. I didn't want to ever stop. I could even remember the feeling. I actually could remember that first kiss. It was a spark of life. A slow passionate sweet kiss.

When he stopped I was highly disappointed. He looked at me confused because I was straight mad.

"Why'd you stop?" I pouted

He laughed shaking his head. Kissing me again deepening it more than before. Sliding his tongue in this time. It was a natural high and i could feel myself becoming like jelly. I decided to break the kiss and have some control. Looking him in his eyes I pecked his lips three more times and sat where I could look at him directly.

"Tell me about us. I want to know everything." I said staring into his eyes.

"Aii sooooo.... I think it was January I met your fine ass at the club. You had moves too but we ain't dance together. Some shit went down with a goofy nigga and I ran in to save the day. Pulling you and Zen out of harms way."

I looked at him confused for a second because what goofball ass nigg stopped me from having fun. Deciding not to comment on it I continued to listen.

"We got out the club and bro you had the worst attitude ever shawty. I mean it was baaaaaad. Like if you didn't look so good i don't know man." He said

"Bye nigga. You know you wanted this." I said rolling my eyes.

Laughing, "Yeah you right because that same night I took you home. It probably the best night I ever had. No gay mushy shit." I smiled hearing that. I wish I remembered that night. Not realizing I was beginning to tear he wiped a tear from my eye. He looked concerned I just smiled as tears streamed down my face.

"What's wrong? I didn't mean to hurt you." He said worried.

"It's not you I'm just so upset I can't remember anything. I can tell you love me but it's hurting me that i don't know anything. What if things change? I want to be able to love and be happy with you. I don't want to hurt you." I cried.

He just held me in his arms as I cried. It was so nice to be held I didn't want him to ever let go. The tears finally stopped falling but my head was on fire. I was over heating and felt the worst pain come in.

It was like someone was dragging a chainsaw across my head it hurt so bad. It scared Phae so bad he was going to get a nurse but I grabbed his hand squeezing it. I whimpered through my pain saying, " Stay here and just pray. I need you here." As I squeezed his hand harder.

I could feel his tension from how I was hurting his hand so I let it go to grab his arm instead. I thought I was bleeding through my eyes from the pain but it was something else. I closed my eyes trying to pray away the pain. Yet in the midst of the prayer my memories were flooding through my head like wild fire. Everything came. It raised my blood pressure more by every new memory it as too much to handle at once.

Nurses finally came rushing in and Phae was by my side talking to me but I let him go. I was hurt mentally and officially emotionally. Remembering what happened started to eat at me. But before I could even say anything I was sedated and fell asleep.

********************************

Done and tired 😴

Vote Comment Share