Every now and then you want to be seen and it will cost you more than you know. Never forget who you are or where you come from because your past can haunt you. But most importantly It will make you stronger so keep your head up. Chazaeyah is fina...
I've been keeping my distance from everyone since the accident. From what I was told Savage ain't remember too much and wanted to be put under my protection. So of course I granted it.
My closest and hardest hitters were on watch 24/7. No one was getting close without losing a limb. I'm guessing after being helped out that day that Omari finished that nigga. But something ain't feel too right so i had one of my bros look into it. They said they found no body.
Regardless though I will insure that Savage and Ivy are safe. My mental was still fucked up from what I saw. I can never forget that sight for as long as I live. My heart still can't bare it. I shed one loan tear thinking on it and beating myself up on how I could've done more.
Lost in my thoughts I was distracted by my phone ringing. I was just going to decline it but seeing it was Savage I decided to answer. It's rare that she decides to FaceTime me. Shit it's rare for her to use her iPhone.
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"Wasspoppin Savage?" I looked at her face and she looked straight annoyed and bored.
"Why you ain't pull up to the hospital in a minute? I miss you. Plus I wanna talk to you." She said with a hint of attitude.
"My fault Aii. But I was keeping my distance for good reason. No one wants me near you and I don't blame them. I failed you." I said feeling like shit all over again.
"Nigga yes you did fail me but I don't care. Everyone failed me honestly but I refuse to speak on this over the phone. Pull up or get shot." She said rolling her eyes and ending our call.
I was lost though. What did she mean by everyone failed her and could she remember what happened. I immediately jumped up getting dressed to go see her.
Zey POV
I was bored. Straight flat out bored. I get out of this hell in another week and I just wanna fight. Once my memory came back I blocked everyone out I kept them from seeing me. Granted I was wrong but I needed to process what happened. I needed to talk to someone.
My choice was Snipes first, then Ashanti and then Zen. Everyone else was cut. I didn't care they took a thousand years to find me. Where were they when I needed them. I got raped because no one looked hard enough. Maybe they hated me I don't know. This is why I needed to speak to someone.
My mind was just fucking with me. I heard a knock at my door not feeling like getting up I just yelled who was it.
"How you ask that after you told me to pull up?" I heard Snipes say it made me smile.
"Come in light skin." I said rolling my eyes.
I heard him laugh as he walked in. I just watched his body language as he sat down he honestly looked like shit. Anyone who didn't know him would say he looked fine but I know Snippes. I know him better than anyone what happened that night ate at him alive.
"Do you hate yourself?" I asked getting straight to the point.
He looked at me with a confused look then sighed putting his head down in his hands. I felt like he was crying something in me told me he was truly hurting. I got up and hugged him and could hear him sniffling as he wiped his eyes.
"Man you don't know Zey. I wanna go back and fix it all I wanted to stop it all I really did." He said breaking down in tears.
I just kept hugging him crying myself. He was forced to watch what happened to me. I was broken from it all.
"I know you would've killed them if you weren't held like that. It's not your fault. It was never your fault." I said hugging him tightly.
I felt him tense up from my words catching on to what I said. "Wait how do you know that? Zey..... You remember what happened?" He asked looking half scared.
I looked him in his eyes and smiled. That was all the confirmation he needed. I got up to go back to bed and he held me tightly before I got on the bed.
"I'm sorry.... is it my fault, no but I just want to tell you I'm sorry. No one will touch you again that's on my life." Hearing those words tugged at my heart.
I didn't even realize I started to cry but I just broke down. He held me the entire time. Well that was until Trigga walked in.
"What is this?" He said calmly but you could see the anger in his eyes.
"It's nothing man. Imma call you later and answer the phone." Snipes told me then kissed my cheek and left out. I guess that wasn't a statement but a demand.
I watched him walk out as I could see Trigga calming himself down in the corner of my eye. Without hesitation I sat in bed and looked out my window. My face felt puffy and it was embarrassing I didn't want him to ever see me cry. I started to sink in my bed ready to throw the cover over my head. But once I was about to he stopped me.
"Try again." He spoke pulling the cover down. "We need to talk." I looked him in his eyes annoyed because I knew it was about to be a problem.
"Listen please don't argue with me right now my head hurts." I explained.
"I don't want to argue with you and lose your attitude I just want to know why you were crying. Also why he was holding you the way he was." He said "I worry about you Zey." I could see the sincerity in his eyes too I wanted to tell him I remember it all.
I want to.............. but will he ever look at me the same.
I felt his hand touch my face making me shy away from him. Why did I react like that? I saw how hurt he was from my reaction. Damn. I thought right. When I was gonna say something he got up fixing himself to leave. Don't leave. Talk to me. Is what I wanted to saw but the words wouldn't come out.
He started to walk toward the door as I watched. "When you what to open up about what happened just call me, okay. I love you. I really do but I won't force you to talk."
"Wha..wha..what are you talking about?" I asked afraid of the thought that he may know my memories returned.
"Zey no matter what happens I can tell when you change, when you lie and when your upset or hurt. So my one question is when did they return? Because that hurt in your eyes gave it all away." I just stared at him shocked hearing his words.
"Well shit." I laughed. "I'm not gonna tell you if your just gonna leave me all alone." I said slightly smiling.
I wanted him to tell him. ********************************
Mad late yes but I got lost in the world of food and sleep so that's why I didn't post this yesterday.
