predicament
tonight i let my lips meet somebody else's
because i knew that i could never have you
and yet
you were still the only thing on my mind.
the singular entity that invaded all of my thoughts
despite the fact that my lips were pressed to another boy
who i do not love
the way that i love you
who i could never love
the way that i love you
even though i know
that you will never be mine.
and i guess what hurts the most
is that it took somebody else's lips
for me to realize that yours were the only ones i had been craving
it took somebody else's hands
for me to realize that yours were the only ones i really wanted
it is the same way a person craves red wine after a long day
or the same way a person desires the warmth of the sun during a gentle breeze
and yet the truth that i will never have you still lingers in my mind
kind of like
the fireflies that you chased as a little kid
in that they know that you will never
be able to catch them
and tonight my mind is on fire
raging with inextinguishable flames
and you are the singular piece of reason
that has the capability to put them out.
and so i keep asking myself
why i so selfishly gave myself to someone else
as if they could ever compensate for someone like you
as if the universe was that simple
because you and i both know
that it is most definitely not.
YOU ARE READING
all of the things i should have said sooner
Şiirsometimes the only way to explain how you're feeling is through concepts. this is how i feel. a collection of thoughts, sometimes incomplete and occasionally inconsistent. ideas revolving around the concept of love and it's relevance to the mind...
