Misery { Michael Clifford}

29.) I Love You, Goodbye

Carter's P.O.V

Its been days since I last talked to Michael. He showed up here while Marc was here, but he walked in to see me sitting in Calum's lap laughing at something we were talking about. He turned right around and left. I havent seen him since.

"Do you still miss him?" Cal asked me.

We're both sitting outside on the front stoop, just staring at the stars.

"I mean, yeah of course. I loved him. I still do love him. I just, I can't forgive him. Not now, not ever." I said quietly.

I turned to look at Cal and he was just nodding his head as if he knew what I was talking about. Maybe he does though. Maybe there was a boy in his life at one point that he loved, and he lost him. 

I never really asked him.

"Have you ever been in love?" I asked without really thinking about it anymore.

"Maybe once. I'm not sure. I still miss him everday though. I haven't seen him in a few months. He didn't like that I wanted to keep him a secret. He was out, and he was proud. I was a closeted freak. I was scared of what everyone would say and do. I lost him because I was scared." He said, and I frowned.\

"Have you tried talking to him?"

"I have. He's happy now. He has a boyfriend, they live together in an apartment. They have two cats and a dog. It's like he has his own little family kind of, something I couldn't give him." He said, and I frowned again.

"You'll find somebody Cal. I know you will. You're a great guy." I said nd he just shrugged.

"Am I?"

"Of course you are. Yeah youve made mistakes, but who hasn't? Not to mention you're attractive, and funny, and you have a smile that light up a room. And guy would be insanley lucky to have you." I said, and he smiled at me.

"Thanks Car, that means a lot."

I felt my phone buzz, and it was a text.

From Michael.

Michael- Can we please talk?

Me- There is nothing to talk about anymore. It's done. I'm done. 

Michael- Car, please. I just wanna explain my side of things.

Me- I saw everything. There is nothing to explain.

I looked up from my phone to see him standing there infront of us.

"Mate, I will rock your jaw again." Calum said clenching both is fists, and his jaw.

"Carter, please talk to me." Michael said, ignoring him.

"No."

"Please."

"No. Im happy now okay? Dont ruin it."

"I just-"

"I love you Michael, but this is goodbye. Move on. Be happy."

A/n- Im ending it here. I think I like where this book is at and I dont wanna drag it on. So I hope you enjoyed it. If you did, pleease go read any of my other stories that I've published. :) Love youuu<3