Save him

7~I dont need help

"I said give it back!" He yelled snatching the container out my hands I stared at him blankly.

"Y-you...you're depressed?"

"No I'm not" he spat turning away from me

"Then why do you have zoloft!? Its for depression" he threw it on the bed and turned to me his face now emotionless "Just stay out of my business" he said taking a step towards me "I don't want you in my life"

"Im just trying to help! I want to help you!"

"I don't need your help! Do you think you could help this" he lifted up his sleeve reviling all the scars "Huh do you? No you can't!" my hand went over my mouth as I stared at his arm, he shoved his sleeve back down "I don't want pity so don't you DARE give me pity" I took a few steps towards him and lifted his sleeve back up.

They filled his arm and it killed me inside I felt the tears well up in my eyes "Kristina...don't cry... its fine just don't cry" he whispered cupping my face, I lightly trailed my hand down his arm "Why" I whisper.

"You know getting bullied all the time can cause a pretty big effect on you...sister getting taken away only mother being drunk telling me im not worth it brother never calls... it all seems worthless like nobody at all cares and its true nobody does"  I looked up at him sadly

"I do" he gave me a small smile and hugged me "Caleb you are not worthless you have to understand that" I mumbled into his chest "I wish it was that easy Kris..." I felt my heart flutter no one has ever called me that before... but he doesn't believe me. "H-have you ever tried um" I felt kind of bad for asking but I needed to know.

"Suicide?" He replied I just nodded, he sighed "Honestly...yes once or twice it never worked I couldn't do it I had my sister to stay for" I looked down

"When was the last time?" I mumbled not making eye contact with him

"Last month" I looked up at him and kissed his cheek lightly

"You have so much to live for....dont let high school idiots bring you down" I smile, I look over at the clock and wow time flies by fast! "Hey its almost one in the morning and im really tired" he nodded in agreement. I grabbed my PJ's and went into the bathroom to change. When I came back out I saw Caleb laying in the spare mattress "Out now! You sleep on my bed its more comfortable" 

"In that case I'll stay here...Im the guy and I need to be a gentlemen for the lady so you sleep im not moving" he stuck out his tongue I raised an eye brown and jumped on top of him.

"Get off!" I grumble trying to push him of but failing. In a swift movement Caleb picked me up and threw me in my bed "Now stay!" I just noticed....hes only wearing shorts.

"A-arent you um...cold" He looked down at himself

"Not really... this is how I normally sleep so im used to it I guess" He said scratching the back of his neck "I can put my other things on if it really bothers you" He mumbled, I didn't want to seem rude....control don't make this awkward Kristina!

"No its fine...just surprised me" He nodded and looked up at me and I just looked down at him. I got this weird feeling in my stomach the one where it feels like something is fluttering in my stomach....butterflies! I am getting butterflies from freaking Caleb Ross!

I coughed awkwardly and looked away, a loud bang echoed around and I jumped "It was thunder" He whispered I smirked to myself and decided to have some fun "You know...they said this house was haunted when we moved in...it was really cheap" I mumbled quietly I saw Caleb's eyes widened and he sat up.

"What? W-what do you mean? A creepy lady isn't going to jump from your cupboard right?" He said looking around, don't laugh...don't laugh... "Well the people here before us said their sons started to act weird... they started going crazy, the first one that was targeted at was the seventeen year old son" I say seriously

"Nothing happens anymore right?..."

"Everything still happens...it can all go..CRASH!" I yell loudly and Caleb screamed which made me laugh so hard
Oh....my.....god! that was hilarious! I was j-just kidding" I laugh calming down a bit he glared at me

"That was mean" He pouted I couldn't help but let my eyes travel down to his lips. I wonder what it would feel like if I kissed them...I shook my head lightly and looked away "Lets sleep" I whispered and turned on my side closing my eyes "Goodnight Kris" He mumbled. Kris.... I smiled to myself and fell asleep.

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"Kris" He whispered I looked up at him....Caleb he was leaning down im going to kiss him I was going to kiss Caleb and I wanted to! Just as his lips pressed on mine

"Tina, Caleb wake up me and mum are going to the shops so you two are here alone!" I jumped up and looked around. A dream I had a bloody dream about kissing Caleb what the hell? I looked over at him and see him squinting looking around also. His hair was messy and it made him look so...sexy?

"What the hell?" He mumbled rubbing his head, he looked up at me and smiled slightly "Morning to ya" He said in a sleepy tone I smiled at him "Hey..." He blinked a few times before yawing then he looked back up at me with a slightly confused face "Why are you red?" I sat there not moving maybe because I had a dream about you kissing me! "Um I don't know it normal happens"

"You must have some really erotic dreams huh?" He chuckled lightly, I felt my eyes widen and I gasped loudly purely shocked "What...wait NO! HELL NO" I shriek

He laughed, this was like the first time I have heard him laugh...

That laugh is just so perfect....

Caleb stopped laughing and looked at me weirdly...Oh god I did not just say that out loud please please PLEASE! "Nothing about me in perfect" he mumbled, I glared then pinned him down his eyes went wide.

"Don't think so lowly of yourself" I said, his phone then started ringing and he looked down at it his face remaining emotionless "I'll be right back" He mumbled and walked into the bathroom, I sat on my bed for the mean time. After 7 minutes passed he still hasn't got back yet. I walked to the bathroom and knocked on the door "Caleb?" no response "Caleb?" Still no response, I pressed my ear to the door and heard him breathing heavily and something falling to the floor. It almost sounded like glass?...metal?.....oh no i know what it is! I knocked on the door furiously "Caleb open this door! PLEASE" I begged I pulled at my hair and ran to grab something that would open the door.

I jammed the spoon, yes spoon, into the lock and turned it. Shit I hope this works I opened the door and saw Caleb holding his arm by the sink. On the ground was a small blade, that can bring so much pain I ran up to Caleb and covered my mouth as I saw his arm.

The blood trickled down his arm, he looked at me weakly "Im fine" He whispered almost inaudible I shook my head in response "No your not! You're bleeding Caleb"  I felt tears starting to form in my eyes, what do I do? What do I say?! I have never felt so scared in my life, then that feeling came... that feeling I get when im about to pass out. Don't do it please not right now.....I shut my eyes tightly and stumbled back a bit. "A-are you okay" Don't give in....dont let darkness take over! Just fight it! My eyes snapped open and I grabbed the bench tightly and breathed in and out

"Im fine, lets just get that fixed" I say breathlessly

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Caleb sat on my bed with his sleeve over his hands hiding his arm "Why...why would you do that?" I ask pinching the bridge of my nose walking around in circles. He didn't answer me so I stood in front of him and gripped on his shoulders "Why Caleb, why would you do that?" I whisper he looked up at me with glassy eyes. It was so hard to see him like this... "Im worthless....dumb, ugly and just a waste of space" He mumbled still looking up at me, as his head was going down again to his lap a grabbed it with my hands and pulled him up again "Who told you that?"

"Everyone..."

"Who called you before Caleb?"

"Zach"