Mikaal

52: Mikaal

14 March - 8:30 pm

Hello, so I'm back...

I know, it's a bit dumb starting my entries this way when only I will ever read them but, well, it seemed the most appropriate way to begin considering I haven't written in a long time... As you know, I didn't see a point in writing about—in reliving—the pain of Blake...

Ugh, let's not go there.

I have something different to report today. It's a nice change, having something else to write about, finally! So what's my news, you ask?

I met an interesting guy today—a friend of Simon's...

It was after maths. I didn't notice him at first—I'm still a bit of a zombie these days, just going through the motions... But today, I met this guy named Mikaal. I love his name! It's just so...uncommon.

He approached us to get notes from the lecture off Simon. I think he's not a morning person, based on Simon's joking comment to him, "Slept in again?"

The first thing that stood out for me was his smooth voice and his striking green eyes. His eyes were...how do I describe it? It was like they were entrancing yet playful.

It was kind of a weird experience, actually, when I look back at it. You know how shy I am around guys I don't know—especially good looking ones like him. (Boy oh boy is he hot! He's athletic, you can tell straight away—the way his T-shirt clung to his defined shoulders, and the sight of his taut arms...) BUT the weird part, as I was starting to say, was; there's something about his presence—I felt strangely at ease, comfortable as we exchanged a few words.

He thought my name was unique actually, saying my name a few times before flashing me an irresistible smile...

Anyway, don't worry, I am definitely NOT thinking about being in another relationship. It's too soon... And as if a guy like him would even be interested in a girl like me!

But what I will say is, it's nice to have a distraction. Especially considering I may be spending more time with him.

Because our maths lecturer told us this morning that we have a group assignment—groups of three—so Simon and I agreed Mikaal should join us.

Sigh... I know what you're thinking. Don't do this to yourself, Dalia! But honestly, I'm not going to overthink this. I can see us becoming friends, that's all, just from the relaxed vibe I got from him.

And I'm just glad to have something new in my life to talk about other than 'him'...

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3 May - 9:00 pm

Okay, I'll skip the pleasantries and just launch straight into it (because I'm too excited!!!!). So so much to update you on!!

After Mikaal's voicemail on Saturday, I messaged him the following morning about meeting. We caught up in Kings Park and... We're now together!

I'm sooooo happy, yet also a bit nervous... It's scary being in a relationship again, but it feels different—it feels right this time, like we're on the same page. It's funny how when you're with someone and have nothing else to compare it to, you don't realise how wrong it actually was until you experience something new that's just easy and smooth...

Because it wasn' t until Mikaal came into my life that I've now realised how hard things were with Blake. I'm getting a headache just thinking about it now... Ugh, okay, no more talking about bleh!