Streaks of Silver 《On-hold/Slow Updates》

Chapter 4: If love was easy, then why do I always feel like I need a manual.

#(Picture above kind of what I imagined Ty to look like, but with darker hair.) Another update! I'm not sure when I'll be able to update next as I have loads of tests coming up this week. Hopefully I'll be able to update at the weekend. I have a lot of exciting chapters coming soon, but I wanted to give a chapter in Tyler's perspective about his feelings. Do you think Tyler will fess up? And will DI Honeysuckle be paying a visit soon ;)#

Tyler POV

If love was easy, then why do I always feel like I need a manual. These past few weeks have been lonely at best. My parents are too busy immersed in their work to even notice my existence. Sometimes I wonder why'd they ever have a child, if they're always away on business trips or glued to their phones so much - I actually get concerned that they think their phone is another limb.

I've seen Cory and Cassie few and in-between. As to quote Cory he's "holed up" in the hospital and Cassie's parents grounded her. Which to be honest is kind of a blessing. Which gives me time to figure out how the hell I'm going to tell Cassie how I feel. Hell get it, I'm a vampire for crying out loud, if I can't do humour then maybe I'll stick to eternal brooding. Yeah that's probably for the best.

Ever since Cassie kissed me, I can't seem to function. It's like when the screen of your phone freezes and it's stuck on that one second. My brain can't stop re-playing that moment over and over again in my head. I can't decide if it was a spur of the moment kiss or if Cassie actually reciprocates my feelings. I've been crushing on this girl since pre-school and I've known her since we came out of the womb. As both our mothers got pregnant at the same time and became fast friends in pregnancy classes. Ever since that day Cassie was the only girl who treated me like a human being all throughout secondary school. Not like she wanted to rip my clothes off or that I was a piece of gum she wanted to wipe off of her shoe.

So to think even consider that she likes me back is mind-boggling. I can't even talk to Cory my best friend about it, but then again I'm not entirely sure if he's in love with Cassie too. Plus he's in the hospital so that makes it even harder to talk to him in between visiting hours. Since Cassie's present with me for most of those. The only other guy friend I could talk to is gone. I can barely say Nathaniel's name without choking up. Every time I think of him and how he gave his life for us: I drown in guilt. Even after everything Nathaniel did, Rachel still attempted to blow up the hospital and by some thank the stars miracle the hospital had been evacuated. Saving thousands of precious lives. I just wonder if I could've been stronger, if I had predicted Nathaniel shooting the wooden stake. Then maybe I could've saved him. It sounds twisted considering the fact that he tried to kill me, but he was only doing it to save his sister because Rachel blackmailed him. When he realised she was just playing him; he made the biggest sacrifice anyone could've asked of him. So when I think of Nathaniel, I don't think of him in a bad light, I think of him as a hero and the wild bro who certainly knew how to have a good time and live it up for a night out. We had so many incredible, hilarious memories that I'll never forget and treasure forever. Why let one tainted memory spoil the rest?

I keep this in mind as I head to Cassie's to pick her and Maia up in my blue Volvo on our way to greet Cory. As he's released from hospital today after two weeks spent in the recovery ward. Just the thought of my best friend making it out okay, after every bit of suffering Rachel caused him, puts a smile on my face...