Love Noona • jjk

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-jungkook's pov-

i'm home alone, feeling nervous.

mijeong will be here in about an hour, my mum is away with my dad on this cruise.

i plan to have sex with mijeong tonight, i know i'm ready and i really want to...especially with her, i trust her and i love her so much.

i do feel nervous whenever i think about it because she's been with other guys before, and i know that, but i've never been with other girls. i have pleasured myself before, i do it nearly all the time and since my first kiss with mijeong i've always thought of her while i did it.

what if i disappoint her?

she is the love of my life, i always wanted to be like my mother and father. my fathers first love was my mother, she's a little bit older then him so that's what stopped him in the first place.

they got married and had me...and that's how i want mine and mijeong's future to be like.

what if she's not in the mood for sex tonight though?

i shake my head and get up of the sofa, heading upstairs to the shower.

i grab a towel and shut the bathroom door behind me. i then stripped all my clothes off, stepping into the shower.

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i was stood in my room, drying my hair with a towel, when i heard a knock on the front door.

she's early...

i run down the stairs and go up to the front door.

i opened the door to see my beautiful girlfriend stood there. she is wearing a cute denim skirt with a baby blue shirt, tucked in.

"you're a bit early" i smiled and grabbed her hand.

she shrugged and came in, i shut the door behind her. i kissed her cheek and saw she looked a little upset, "you okay?"

"yeah, i'm fine"

"i've ordered some pizza, it should be here soon" i smile.

she hugged me, taking me by surprise a little but i hugged her back anyway. "you smell nice" she mumbled, snuggling her face into my neck.

"oh i just got out of the shower" i said and stroked her soft hair. "are you sure you're okay, beautiful"

she broke the hug and nodded. "you don't seem okay...mijeong you can tell me, you know. you can tell me anything" i said.

i took her hand and walk into the living room with her.

we sat down on the sofa "please tell me what's the matter, mijeong"

"you would never use me, jungkook. would you?" she spoke.

i shook my head "mijeong you've said this before...is it really what you think? because i would never use you for anything. why would i hurt you like that, huh?"

she looked down "i know, you would never"

"then why do you keep thinking that i'm using you for something?"

"i don't know" she shrugged "it's just...i love you" she showed me a little smile.

i felt a massive grin spread across my face, i quickly kissed her lips and pulled her into a hug "i love you too, i love you so much"

i heard her giggle and a placed multiple kisses on her head.

"but never think that again" i said.

she placed her lips on mine, kissing me passionately.

we kissed until another knock on the door was heard, i broke the kiss "that will be the pizza"

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we are sat on my bed, we finished our pizza already, now we are watching netflix on my tv.

"m-mijeong" i said. i was currently hugging her waist with my head on her chest, her hand stroking my hair.

"hmm" mijeong responsed.

"i know this is a personal question but...when was the last time you h-had sex?"

i felt her hand stop stroking my hair "oh um...about almost a year ago"

"sorry that was really personal, i shouldn't of asked that" i remarked.

"it's okay, you're my boyfriend right" she said and i nodded. "why did you ask me that question?" she said quietly.

i chewed my lip my head still on her chest, her hand stroking my hair. "um...i-..."

she moved down and laid on her side so she was facing me "don't be scared to tell me anything...are you ready to have sex yet?"

"yeah but...i really don't want to disappoint you in anyway, i've never done it before so i don't exactly know what to do" i sighed and looked down.

she put her hand on my cheek, making me look at her "i know you're nervous jungkook...i was too, when i had my first time" she said "i honestly wasn't ready but i thought ; because all my friends are losing their virginity, maybe i should too"

i looked into her eyes and listened to her words.

"when my parents died i became really insecure, i just wanted to be like everyone else...i wish i would of waited, waited for someone who really loved me, really cared about me and really wanted me" she said.

i nodded a little and tucked a piece of hair behind her ear "i love you" i whispered.

she smiled and closed her eyes "i love you" she whispered back.

"i trust you too"

i pecked her lips.

"i care about you"

i pecked her lips again.

"and i want you"

she looked up into my eyes as mine looked back into hers. my hand travelled under her shirt, touching her bare soft skin.

my eyes flickered to her lips and i lean in to kiss her...she kisses back instantly.

after a few seconds, my tongue brushed against her lips and she parted her lips a little.

i grabbed her hand and turned on my back, pulling her on top of me.

it broke the kiss but our lips reconnected instantly, i felt a heat sensation when her hands travelled down my chest and stomach.

i felt her fingers touch the waistband of my sweatpants, my breath hitched a little.

she broke the kiss "you okay?" she asked, her voice soft.

i nodded "keep going" i said.

she smiled and pecked my lips before kissing my jaw, then neck.