reality ➳ sm (discontinued)

three

shawn

"5 minutes!" teddy exclaims standing up. 5 minutes until my single in my blood is released. i've been working on this song for probably a little under a year now and it's finally going to be released in 4 minutes. holy fuck. i am nervous.

"do you think the fans will like it?" i ask with my hands linked to each other as i rest my chin on it. i feel my anxiety kick in, the nerves and emotions are kicking me everywhere. andrew and the rest of the team give me a look. not a look, a glare.

"yes you dickhead, of course they will. this is like your second best song under lost in japan. it's gonna hit the charts dude" justin slaps my back. i chuckle and scroll through my twitter timeline.

"okay, i'm just anxious" i say. 3 minutes left to go. i laugh inside reading those tweets. i really do have funny fans. i like a few of the tweets to let them know i'm online. we're at a bar right now in los angeles outside as we await my single's release.

"one more fucking minute" zubin cusses. i look at the time on my phone. so close. so close until the world knows how i've been feeling and what i've been dealing with. it's not a good thing to go through and now that everyone will know, really gets my heart jumping.

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it's out! everyone hugs me and cheers for me making my smile grow wide. i recieve text messages from my mom, dad and aaliyah. my face stays still, making my jaw hurt because i'm smiling so much. i open my drafts on twitter and tweet that my single is out. i also post it on my instagram story and feed that has been ready beforehand.

the song is released on everything. spotify, youtube, apple, soundcloud...you name it. i scroll through twitter again and favourite some tweets. i come across an article that made my heart skip a beat.

sophia cotter: where is she and why hasn't she posted on social media?

is the article named and written by tmz. i sigh and scroll past it switching to instagram. should i do it? it won't mean anything, right? i search up her name and click on her latest post. 26th december, 2017. it's almost the end of may. is something wrong?

"shawn, what the fuck are you doing?" justin says as he stands behind me looking at my phone screen. i quickly get out of it and clear my throat.

"nothing" i answer.

"why were you on her instagram?" he asks. i sigh. why hasn't she posted? that is so unlike her. unless something is wrong?

"because she hasn't posted from last year. scrolled past an article about it" i say standing up.

"this isn't the time for your ex girlfriend. your single just released and another is going to be released tomorrow. focus on that then focus on your current girl" he tells me. he pats my shoulder before walking away. my phone suddenly rings, hailey's facetime call filling my phone screen. i answer it and smile as i see her beautiful face.

"hey you!" she smiles. i've been seeing hailey for a month now. no one obviously knows except for my close friends and family. we started talking in march and we just hit it off from there.

"hey, have you streamed it yet?" i smirk. she scrunches her eyebrows and places her hand on her chest. she's at her house right now, music playing in the background. in my blood actually.

"of course, it's literally on repeat right now. i'm really proud of you" she smiles.

"thanks babe, i'll be coming to new york soon. promise" she moves around in her living room and scoops food into her mouth.

"okay good. are you still at the bar?" she asks. i nod. her face is literally glowing under the light, her hair is slicked back into a short ponytail and her smile is literally off the fucking rails. she is that beautiful.

"yeah i am, we'll be leaving soon though. i'm pretty tired" i say yawning. her face softens, her smile fading. her music comes to a stop as she finishes chewing.

"are you okay? i know you've been dealing with a lot. i just want to make sure" she says making me grin.

"i'm okay. i still feel a bit nervous but i'm fine. i just need to see you" i say. she smiles, clocking her head down to her shoulder.

"soon. i'll talk to you tomorrow. i don't want to keep you from celebrating" she says. i nod and blow a kiss.

"bye" i hang up the call and then go on to facetime my mom who is back home in toronto obviously.

mom and dad's face pops up on my screen and i realise they're in my condo. "hi mom, dad" i smile. they both smile widely as her phone is leaned against something. i chuckle at my mom. "mom, don't cry please"

"i'm so immensely proud of you. we love you so much, you know that right?" she sniffles. her eyes are red, tear stains on her cheek. "you are so strong and so real and i really can't say that enough"

"mom" i chuckle, trying my best not to cry. i hate it when my mom cries. crying is pretty much contagious for me.

"continue to stay humble and true to who you are. it gets you a lot in life" dad says. i nod and smile.

"i know, i love you guys. where's aaliyah?" i ask. i look back quickly and see everyone else is still hanging out and having drinks.

"she's at a sleepover. you're not drinking, are you?" mom raises an eyebrow.

"okay, i'll call her tomorrow and no i'm not mom" i laugh.

"okay we'll let you get back to celebrating. bye sweetie" mom says.

"bye shawn, stay safe"

"bye guys, i love you" i smile and hang up.

here's to a new chapter.

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a/n ; well this chapter is pretty boring but it will get better filled with laughs, sadness, cuteness and drama, of course.

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and also i do not like justin stirling for many disgusting reasons so don't think i like him because i don't.