reality ➳ sm (discontinued)

four

sophia

today, ryland comes back from london with his friends for an event with a brand. he was there for a week and now he is back home. thank god because i missed him so much. i really do hate to be separated from him but i think i'm just too clingy as always.

i offered to pick him up but he declined and said he didn't want me to because i was pregnant. such a stupid reason. i can still drive perfectly. he's just overreacting and overprotective. "when's ryland gonna be here?" alyssa asks as we relax on the couch watching netflix.

i shrug, "he texted me when he landed about 20 minutes ago so he should be here soon but it's golden hour so probably another hour or so" i answer. she nods and yawns. it's about 6pm right now and i'm really fucking hungry.

"should we just get postmates?" i ask alyssa. she looks at me.

"yeah, i'm really feeling chinese food" she says throwing her head back. oh amazing. chinese is my favourite cuisine.

"yes, can you order me fried rice and 10 dumplings?" i ask. she nods. dumplings, i think yes. after she orders, the food won't come for another half an hour or more due to traffic.

"so have you heard shawn's singles?" she asks. i shake my head. shawn released in my blood two days before and then lost in japan yesterday but i haven't bothered to listen to it. i don't want to. i haven't heard any of his songs since we broke up.

"no i haven't. is it good?" i ask. she nods grinning.

"oh yes it is. in my blood is a sad song and lost in japan is just a happy song about flying to a girls hotel for sex" she says. i press my lips together into a thin line. right. "i almost cried listening to in my blood" she adds. okay, that is more of a reason for me not to listen.

"okay alyssa. you can stop talking about him now. now his songs are gonna be on the radio. that's great" i remark whilst rolling my eyes at her. she gives me a look. an 'are you stupid' look.

"bitch, just because he's your ex doesn't mean you can't listen to his songs. you were a fan and you still are you dumbass. they're bomb as fuck" alyssa cusses obviously getting annoyed with me.

"i know that. i just simply don't want to. it's not that big of a deal lyss. i wasn't even a huge fan to begin with" i respond. she scoffs and takes a sip out of her water.

"yeah right" she says unconvinced.

-

an hour passes by when there's a knock on our front door. i jump up and head to the door excited to see my lover. i open the door and it reveals our chinese food from a local restaurant. i smile and thank him closing the door. i am so so hungry, holy shit. i can't control myself. "wow, already eating it? that hungry?" alyssa laughs.

i shake my head with a mouth of a whole dumpling. fuck. it's burning. i pant with the dumpling still in my mouth wide open as i fan myself. "fuck, hot hot hot" i curse. alyssa laughs.

"such an idiot sometimes" she says taking a bite out of her spring roll. "ooft, this is amazing" she says closing her eyes to savour the taste. i finally swallow down the dumpling. i jog to the fridge for a cold glass of water, feeling my throat burn.

"way too hot. never again" i tell myself out loud. she shakes her head in amusement and heads back to the couch with her stir fry and spring rolls. i too, head back to watching to all the boys i loved before with my fried rice and dumplings and of course, my water.

ryland
went to go get dinner at criniti's. see you soon x

i reply back and put my phone down. "who was that?" alyssa questions.

"ryland, he went to get food at criniti's" i answer. she nods. criniti's is one of our favourite italian restaurants to visit once in a while. they make the best pasta and pizza. unreal.

"why can't i have someone as cute as ryland?" alyssa frowns. i chuckle.

"your prince charming will come when you least expect it. maybe you already know him" i shrug. she glances at me then back to the tv.

"pfft, yeah right" she mutters.

-

it's about 8-30pm right now and alyssa and i have gone to our separate rooms because we are both exhausted. alyssa and i went to the gym early this morning then went out for breakfast at alfa bakehouse which makes the best acai bowls ever. i lay down on the right side of my bed leaning against the headboard on my laptop watching kian and jc. the door opens making a creaky sound making me look up.

the tall body figure comes into sight making me smile. i shut my laptop and walk up to him and engulf my boyfriend in a tight hug. "you're back. i missed you. how was it?" i smile kissing him.

"it was a really fun week. front row at the show, lot of fun parties and events. awesome how have you been?" he grins hugging my waist.

"good, i just had chinese food with lyss. ate a lot for the both of us" i chuckle referring to baby down there.

"good, have you been feeling okay? no problems right?" he asks setting down his suitcase and changing into comfortable clothes.

"not really. just have back pain and he or she has been kicking a few times" i say rubbing my belly.

he chuckles and lowers down to my belly placing a soft kiss and then back up again to my lips. "let's go to bed and talk. i'm tired" he says. i nod before getting into comfortable cuddling positions.

"have you thought about it? telling him?" ryland asks. i sigh. i thought i told him i didn't want to talk about him.

"no and you know i don't want to. i have you already so please just drop him and don't ever mention his name with my child again" i say.

"i know baby but he deserves to know" he says. i roll my eyes slightly moving away from him.

"and he deserves to live his dream and he won't if i tell him. i'm doing what's best for the both of us now please just change the subject" i remark.

"okay sorry" he whispers. "i love you"

i smile, feeling his lips on my temple. "i love you too"