reality ➳ sm (discontinued)

nineteen part one

sophia

today was better than most days. madison took me out for lunch because i haven't been going out much since the baby shower and when the news broke. i refused but it was only to lunch so i gave in when madison convinced me for free food. i couldn't pass up on that opportunity.

i wasn't sure where alyssa was. she went out but she didn't tell me where. i think she's seeing someone but she's very secretive about it this time. "hollywood fix posted a video of jack and i with banana and stuff at lunch" madison told me. we got back half an hour ago and were now watching euphoria in the living room.

"what's with that by the way? seeing each other now?" i ask with my brows raised. "how it ended last time was intense, are you sure?"

"it was from weeks ago soph. we weren't anything. it's over" she answers fixing her eyes on the tv. "sometimes i miss him and i don't know why" she sighs. i felt my baby kick as i shifted my position on the couch. i caressed my belly and sat up straighter.

"you okay?" madison asks with concern washing over.

"yeah just kicking a little" i answer. she smiles. i hear the keys jangle on the front door. it must be alyssa. "i'm gonna get up and get a drink" i say. i pressed my palms on the couch for support to help me stand up.

i heard multiple footsteps strut down the hallway as i reached the kitchen. i poured a glass of water. i usually add ice but i wasn't feeling it. "sophia" i heard alyssa speak.

"hey lyss" i speak before turning around. "how was–"

and when i do, i cut myself off and unintentionally drop my glass of water as soon as i see shawn and his family in front of me in my home. they had worried expressions as soon as they heard the glass shatter beneath me.

"hey, be careful with that! you'll cut yourself" shawn hurried over and gently made me move back until my back hit the bench. he looked at me like i had gone insane.

i stood there emotionless as i looked down at the shattered glass next to my feet.

what the hell.

"soph..." madison deadpans. her eyebrows furrowed. her mouth gaped.

i slowly looked up to see them standing there. i looked at karen. she hadn't changed one bit. she looked sad. i felt my eyes glossing up. i immediately moved and rushed past shawn to embrace her. she hugged me back gently but firmly.

"oh sweetie" she whispered. her hand rubbed the back of my head. i shut my eyes with tears getting out. i hadn't seen them in over a year. they were welcoming since the beginning and it was my fault i hadn't kept in contact. especially during the pregnancy.

i'm glad they're here now but they're gonna leave soon right? isn't that how it usually is? they say they're here for you but they never act on it. they're all broken promises and i'm getting sick of them.

i'm sick of my boyfriend telling me he'll come back but he's not. there are more important things than me and i'm not his first priority. it's fine. i'm used to it.

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a/n; hii, this chapter is short but there's a longer part that continues to this chapter and they're both posted so go read :))

sorry it took so long to write!!