reality ➳ sm (discontinued)

thirteen

shawn

"so you're flying your parents over to la?" hailey asks me as we're on the flight to new york city. i nod. we sat across from each other, looking out to the view once in a while. i nod, taking a sip of my water.

"yeah, they wanna see her so bad. i don't really have a choice" i say. she nods acting off. i wonder why. was she bothered by the whole situation? or was it something else? "you okay with that?"

she smiles and nods, "yeah, i think it's a good idea. when are they coming?" she asks. i shrug. we're all really busy right now so we haven't exactly planned the dates yet. i don't even have her number to tell her. i'll have to talk to her through alyssa or jack or johnson. they're our messengers.

"i don't know. i'll figure it out when we get back from new york...why are you so supportive of this whole thing?" i question.

she frowns, "because i'm not gonna be that girl that is going to try to separate you from your child and their mother. i'm doing what's right because you think it's wrong. i want the best for you" she explains.

i nod satisfied with her answer. she leans her head back looking deep in thought. i analysed her, she looked stressed and tired. she also looked...bothered? i don't know. i'm probably reaching. she looked beautiful nonetheless. her skin was always glowing and her lips pink, plump and rosy.

i was in new york for press and hailey had model things planned there too so it was convenient. we also had to do publicity shit there said by the management. it was for my album and for her drop the mic show and other stuff, i don't know. we agreed and later on catched feelings. we weren't really official. i guess, we never talked about it but we were in a thing for sure. we didn't have labels on us but i guess the world already did that for us.

hailey's asleep right now so i put in my airpods and listen to tyler, the creator's flower boy album. a real masterpiece. i received a text message from justin who informed me about a party next week. i'm not sure what i have planned, i always forget but i'll always have andrew to remind me. for now, i just reply a thanks message and turn my phone off.

her phone was beside her standing inside the cup compartment of the seat. i heard multiple vibrations and her screen lighting up but that didn't seem to faze her. maybe it was the same message from justin. "did you get that message from justin?" hailey asked with her eyes still shut.

i nod but realise she can't see. "yeah i did. we going?" i ask. she lifts her shoulders and opens her eyes. "did you just get the message?"

she paused before answering. "yeah i did....it's up to you. i don't have anything big planned on that day or week" she tells me.

"okay, we'll go" i say. she smiles but it seems forced. not a genuine smile. she had this look on this face that something was bothering her. "you okay?" i ask hovering my hand over hers as my thumb roams on the back of her hand.

"i don't know. i'm just exhausted" she answers. i don't reply. moments later, she sits up straighter and looks at me. i look at her and straighten my back.

"what?" i question.

"i know we haven't really talked about...us being a couple. are we a couple?" she asks me. where is this coming from? did she need reassurance from the whole sophia situation? am i missing something? am i being oblivious?

"where is this coming from?" i quietly chuckle. she shrugs looking out the window then back at me. when she doesn't answer, i speak. "the world pretty much already decided for us"

"well? it's the world. they don't know anything about our relationship...if there is one. it's us who decides" she says. i'm sure my team were listening in right now.

"what are you saying?" i ask. "there was never a relationship?" her face scrunches.

"no! of course there was a relationship" she says more gently. "i'm just saying i think we weren't ever boyfriend and girlfriend"

"well do you want to be?"

"i don't know. that's the thing" hailey tells me. "i don't know what i want or who i want..." she trails.

"who?"

what the fuck is happening?

she abruptly pushes her back against the seat in frustration as she rubs her bare face. "i've been talking to justin. and i don't think it's in a friendly way"

my heart slowly shattered right there and then. what the hell do i say to that? how do i react? i don't. i close my eyes and open them again. this time, hailey had a tear rolling down her left cheek.

"shawn. say something" she whispers. "i'm... sorry. you know how i feel about you. you make me smile, laugh. you're so sweet and gentle and every good thing but i feel the same way about justin"

"it's fine. it was just a stunt anyway" i stand up.

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DIRECT MESSAGE
jackgilinsky, jackj, shawnmendes

jackj
i know its your song
and all but bro, you good?

jackgilinsky
yeah man, 'why' is one of ur
deepest songs. who hurt you?

shawnmendes
hailey has feelings for justin

jackgilinsky
wait but aren't you dating
and in love and all that?

jackj
or was it ...

shawnmendes
yeah it was a stunt and i guess
we both caught feelings
but she got it for him too

jackgilinsky
damn

jackj
so what now?

shawnmendes
she's at her home

i'm at a hotel

jackj
have you talked to each
other and about it?

shawnmendes
brief. and no.

jackgilinsky
sort it out or it'll be eating you out like it is for her

shawnmendes
yeah i know but it hurts dude

jackj
we know bro, love you

jackgilinsky
see you soon

shawnmendes
for sure, love you dudes

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a/n: hellooo. it's a been a while. school has been really hectic and full on. here's a short chapter for you and a little social media addition x