reality ➳ sm (discontinued)

eight

sophia

tonight is the night of alyssa's birthday who is now twenty years old. she's pretty damn pumped because next year she can drink - legally. not like she isn't going to drink tonight but still. meanwhile, i'm 19 and pregnant with a celebrity's child.

"you're still gonna wear the outfit we got yeah?" alyssa asks as the makeup artists are caking us up. should i? the article blew up. i started having mental breakdowns. i was so scared of the shame, hate and what people would think of me. does he know? surely he does. it's everywhere and i'm terrified to know what he thinks and if he finds out who the father is.

"fuck it. everyone knows. might as well be in photos now too" i say somewhat bitterly. she grins and fists bumps me.

"i'm so excited. not gonna lie, i'm glad it's out there now. don't you feel the pressure off your shoulders now?" she asks me. oh, it was a huge weight off my shoulders but i still felt weird.

"kinda. he probably knows i'm pregnant now too so i'm fucking terrified" i answer. she nods. my phone rings from the table beside me with all the makeup layed around. i grab it and answer it.

"hey" james, my brother says. i smile, i miss him so much but he's still in college. "how are you feeling?"

"i'm...okay. i'm just getting ready right now with alyssa, stas and madison" i tell him. "how about you?" i say.

i hear him sigh through the phone, "i'm good. a lot of shit from college but i'll handle it. do you need anything? i can book a flight to see you?" he suggests, more so as a question. the brush felt ticklish on my eyelids that i smiled a bit.

"no james, it's okay. you're busy with college. save it till i give birth" i say smiling. wow. giving birth, i can't imagine what that would feel like.

he chuckles, "looking forward to it. does he know? has he tried to contact you?" james asks referring to shawn.

"i don't know but i have a feeling he does. and no he hasn't" i answer. i could notice that james is extremely frustrated with me for not letting the father of my child know and i am too but i just can't bring myself to do it.

"soph" he starts to say sternly. "you need to tell him. you're almost six months into your pregnancy which means three months left till you possibly give birth to his child" stassie, alyssa and madison look at me agreeing with what james is saying.

"i'll talk to you soon, okay?" he asks. i'm trying not to cry right now or i'll ruin my makeup. the makeup artists pulls away and lets me take deep breaths. i need my big brother here with me. i need my mom, i don't even know where my father is. i need james. not having any of my family members with me is really fucking heartbreaking.

"james, i miss you" i say with my voice slightly shaking. i hear him sigh through the phone.

"i miss you too, a lot. i promise i will see you soon, okay?" he says reassuringly. i nod even though he can't see me. "i love you"

"i love you too. bye" i say hanging up. everyone in the room gives me sympathetic eyes but i ignore it. "sorry. i didn't ruin the makeup did i?" i speak to amelia, who is usually my makeup artist.

she smiles shaking her head, "nah, it's okay. are you?" she asks. i smile nodding.

shortly after, we have gotten ready in our outfits and took photos beforehand and now we're at the venue. we came by earlier to decorate with the help of professionals and it reached alyssa's needs. it was honestly very pretty. the deejay was already set and playing music through the booming speakers.

people were starting to arrive at 8pm. i obviously couldn't drink alcohol so i might as well stopped to drink soda too. it was hard but i did often drink tea or juice but mostly just water.

ryland soon came to my side, "hey, if you need anything or if it gets too much or if you need air, let me know okay?" he whispers into my ear. i smile and nod leaning in for a kiss. our lips connected for a short amount of time but i eventually let go.

"okay, i just need to sit down for a minute" i tell him. he nods intertwining our hands leading me to a comfortable sofa. guests were heading straight for the bar. there were glow sticks based on your relationship status. ryland got himself a pink one that signalled he was taken but he didn't get me one cause he said that my belly was an obvious sign.

"sophia!" i hear jordyn call out. i smile as she walked towards me. she leant down and hugged me. "hi, are you feeling okay?" she asks as she sits down by my side.

"i'm okay honestly. i'm happy to be here. i'm just still worried about everything that happened" i say. "i really don't know how kylie did it"

she nods, "it will all be okay, forget about it and have fun celebrating your best friend's birthday. photo booth?" i smile and nod. ryland was talking to presley and the other guys so i left following jordyn to line up for the photo booth.

as it was our turn, jordyn and i took several photos in both black and white and colour. i even showed off my belly in a few of them and jordyn kissed it too. we then got more photos with other people and i was starting to get tired so i left to sit down with ryland and our other friends.

"enjoying the party?" ryland asks me. i nod and smile. i honestly am. i'm with my boyfriend, my best friends and everyone in the same place enjoying the night and having fun and it's all just good vibes.

"can we take photos? i'm in a good outfit with my belly and i want photos with you" i say. he nods. we stand up and ask cindy to take them for us.

we smiled for one photo. another photo where we kissed on the lips and another one where we kissed each other's cheeks. we even got candid ones of us dancing.

"okay, last one. wait, soph turn sideways and ryland bend down and kiss her belly" cindy says. i chuckle at the pose she's making us do. it's like we're a married couple expecting our first baby. "candid!" she exclaims over the loud music as we pose. i broke out of my smile as i threw my head back laughing. people were also looking in aw.

i looked straight ahead again, my smile dropped and my breathing came to a halt. he's here. he's here and he is staring right at me as ryland kisses my belly. fuck.

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