everlasting friendship | elysten

16 | farewell

prompt: "Not everything is built to last, and that's okay."

a one shot in which kirsten and elyssa both realize that happiness doesn't last as long as they thought

the last one shot i will make for this book. enjoy :) -elyssa

I truly believed it would last forever. I truly believed that nothing could ever break the bond we had together. But, something did. I just never thought it would end this way.

Perhaps, telling this with a tale would work best.

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Once upon a time, there was a lonely princess. She wasn't allowed to leave her castle until she was queen. Until then, she had to stay within castle walls.

When she entered what was considered middle school (she could not tell since she was home schooled), her father hired knights that were her age or close to it. The princess was surprised that the knights were young, but that was the reality of their kingdom. If you were born into poverty, you had to train to become a knight in order to earn a living for yourself.

The princess had no choice but to talk to these knights. The king had assigned them the job to guard the princess, so the princess thought she could make some friends, even if these friends were at least three ranks below her.

They all became really good friends, but one knight stuck with the princess through thick and thin. They were each other's whole lives. The two loved each other so much, if they got a significant other, the person they'd choose to stick by was each other.

They thought everything would last forever. Sadly, not all things last forever. The princess and the knight didn't think it applied to them.

Until it applied to them. The princess thought the knight had said bad things about the king, and the princess did what she thought was right. She told the king.

The king gave punishment to the knight, tossing her in jail for a few days. The knight came back to the princess, furious that she would betray her like that.

The knight left the princess after requesting to move to a different department in the castle.

After a few days, the two were back on good terms. Good terms meaning only friends. Not best friends anymore.

The trust became the two was gone, and the princess noticed that. She no longer had the knight within her grasp, and it was all her fault.

So, the princess distanced herself. The day after, the princess saw the knight in the flower garden with another knight.

The princess saw she looked happier with that knight than she looked with the princess.

And the princess had to simply accept that. Even if it hurt, even if it pierced her heart, all she could do was accept that the knight had found someone else.

Thus, the princess stayed in her room for the next few days, wanting nothing more than to disappear.

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If I had a choice, I would time travel back in time and fix every mistake I had made. I would fix everything I did wrong.

I would go back in time and make the decision not to talk to you, for both of our sakes.

So we wouldn't have to get hurt.

The sacrifices I made have led to nothing good. For that, I am forever sorry.

I laid on my bed and closed my eyes, thinking about the good times we had had with each other.

"Not everything is built to last, and that's okay." I whispered to myself, trying to reassure myself that it was okay to accept that you were happy with someone who wasn't me.

I was just overreacting.

I miss her.

It's all my fault, I kept repeating in my mind.

Soon, it would be all over. But it wouldn't. The pain would still be there. It would still hurt.

And that was okay.

You seem happier with them, and I'm happy that you're happy.

Sometimes I fear that I'll sob. Because you're so happy, even more happy than when you were with me. Sometimes I fear that I'll snap. That I'll someday lose my composure.

I'm glad you've found someone who deserves you, and someone you deserve. I'm glad it isn't me.

I told you I was a bad friend. You didn't believe me, but you should now. You should believe that I'm horrible.

With that, I have some last words to say to you.

I hope somewhere, in a different reality, we're on better terms. We're still IBHBMFTFs, fighting for forever. I wish with all my heart that that reality exists.

Thank you for everything.

I love you, and I always will. I miss you, and I hope that one day in the radiant futute ahead of us, we'll meet again on better terms.

Until then, this is my farewell.