Chasing Love

Chapter 19

Jocelyne's POV

OMG! Bradley just kissed me! OMG! I can't believe I kissed back! I pulled apart realizing I was cheating on Luke. I slapped Bradley and ran to my room crying. Luke saw me and followed me closing my door behind.

"Babe, what's wrong?" He asked concerned. He told me he loved me a month ago. I can't break his heart. I really like him but I'm not sure if I love him.

"Luke your going to hate me!" I screamed at him. I just wish this was all a dream. I didn't want to deal with this right now.

"No I'm not, I love you." Luke said. Knowing I kissed Bradley breaks my heart even more. He told me he loves me but after today, or right now he won't love me anymore.

"Bradley kissed me!" I said crying holding onto him as if he was going to melt. My poor Luke. Luke went stiff. He was quiet. Too quiet.

"L-Luke." I said stuttering. Right now I was scared really scared. His knuckles were white, and his nostrils were flaring.

"Did you kiss back?" Luke asked dangerously low.

"Yes but I didn't mean it. It didn't mean anything. I kissed him back but I felt bad for him. It was out of sympathy. Luke please I'm sorry." I said hugging him again but he pushed me off making me fall. This was not my Luke. He was hasn't ever been aggressive with me.

I stared him. Fear evident in my eyes. He is going to hit me. Please god don't let it hurt as much as I think it will.

"NO! GET AWAY FROM ME! ITS OVER! O-V-E-R! OVER! I TRUSTED YOU! I CANT BELIEVE IT! AND YOU DID IT AFTER I TOLD THAT I LOVED YOU! YES I SAID LOVED! I DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE!! I CANT LOVE A MONSTER LIKE YOU! I DONT CARE IF IT WAS OUT OF SYMPATHY! IF ASHTON'S CAT DIES ARE YOU GOING TO KISS HIM OUT OF SYMPATHY?! FUCK YOU! I CANT BELIEVE YOU!" Luke screamed raising his hand to knock the lamp over. Luke is so much like my dad. My dad used to abuse me when I was little. He would scream at me, hit me and knock things over.

Luke looked so much like my dead. Same light green eyes. The lamp broke, a piece of glass from the lamp bounced off the floor and cut my cheek since I was on the floor. I screamed out in pain, feeling my hand getting filled with blood. Luke must of noticed because the anger from his eyes were quickly replaced with shock ness and concern.

"J-Jocelyne, I'm sorry I didn't mean to." He said coming closer. It's too familiar. He will come closer to slap me and say he was just kidding, Say he will take me too the hospital but he will just beat me in an ally.

"I-I'm sorry daddy please don't hurt me." I said trying to get away from him. Luke's eyes started to fill with tears. He knew about my dad.

"N-No don't call me that." he said raising his hand to reach for me. But I screamed and flinched.

"I'm sorry sir! Please don't hit me! I promise I will behave! I'm sorry! Please don't take me to the hospital I can cover it with make up!" I screamed crawling away but he stopped me trying to hug me. I started to scream and kick. I didn't know some one was knocking until the door was knocked down by Harry. He observed the scene and jumped on Luke beating the shit out of him. All the boys were here by now.

I crawled into the walk in closet and hid between the clothes still having a perfect view. Bradley,Niall, Michael and Liam holding Harry back, meanwhile Louis and Zayn try to calm Harry down. Ashton, Calum, Tristan, James, and Connor helping Luke out. Jackie and Lori or Rose were just hugging and crying on each other.

Me and Jackie have gotten really close to each other. No one has noticed I'm gone. I spoke too soon. Harry calmed down looking around for me. Anger and concern in his eyes. He told everyone to leave the room.

When everyone left, he started calling my name and looking under the bed. He looked at the closet door and started to come closer. I mentally cursed myself for not closing the door.

"Jocelyne, I know you're here." He said softly. I just stared at him. He was still looking around. His gaze met mine. I looked away and started to crawl deeper into the pile of clothes.

"Jocelyne, I'm not going to hurt you." he said coming closer. He finally reached me and tilted my chin up slightly to exam my cut. He was talking to me while examining my cut but I couldn't focus. I was just analyzing his face. His curls were messy, His jaw was slightly clenched and he had a little cut on my lip.

"Jocelyne, are you even listening?" he asked looking at me. I shook my head.

"I said that your cut looks very deep and-" I cut him off by kissing him. He was shocked at first but then he started to kiss back. I tried to deepen the kiss but he pulled away.

"Jocelyne, I can't kiss you." he said looking away.

"Why?" I asked slightly hurt. Could my heart get anymore broken?

"Because I have a girlfriend. I don't like you, I never will." As soon as he said it his hand flew up covering his mouth, regret filling his eyes.

How could I be so stupid. He doesn't like me, he never will. No one will. Why did I even kiss him?

"Jocelyne, I didn't mean it like that, I meant-" he said but I cut him off by speaking.

"No, its ok. I'm sorry, I get it though. You have a girlfriend and me kissing you is wrong. Besides, you don't like me, no one does or ever will I get it, you made it clear." I said getting up trying to get away before I embarrass myself any more.

"No, I didn't mean it like that." He said trying to grab my wrist but I moved away.

"Jocelyne stop walking away." he said grabbing my wrist. I tried to pull away but his grip tightened. I could already feel a bruise forming already. I slapped him and ran away. The bus has stopped moving, perfect.

I ran past everyone no matter how many times my name was being called. I ran and ran until I noticed where I was. My friend lives around here. I ran towards his apartment and knocked on his door. Once he opened it I hugged him. It was Snoop Dog.

Yep. I know him. We went to school together. He was like my older brother, he was always there for me. He lead me inside and I told him everything. He gave me some drugs saying that those are like stress relievers. I kind of have a secret no one knows. I do drugs. After hours of talking I thanked him and left running back to the tour bus.

I swung the door open and ran past everyone. I was about to open my door but Luke already had. He started talking to me but I couldn't focus. I tried to convince myself it was Luke but every second that past, he looked like my father.

"I'm sorry dad, please don't hurt." I said walking backwards.

"Don't call me that, it's me, Luke." he said getting closer.

"I'm sorry sir! please don't hurt me!" I screamed shoving past him and closing my door locking it. I took out an unfamiliar drug and took it. I'm still stressed. Why isn't it working? My mind instantly filled with thoughts of Harry.

He doesn't like me. Not even as a friend. I'm just getting more stressed. I took all the drugs at once hoping it would take away the stress. All I remember was Harry bursting through the door before darkness consumed me.

Lori's POV

I stood beside Harry well everyone stood besides Harry while he knocked the door down once again. The sight in front of my shocked me. Jocelyne was unconscious. Drugs scattered all around.

Harry picked her up as he screamed at the bus driver to drive to the nearest hospital. I couldn't handle all this. As I was walking towards my room I saw Eleanor kissing Calum. And he kissed back.